Help me

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Registered: 12-13-2010
Help me
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Sun, 03-06-2011 - 5:10pm
I am hour away from leaving to go to an alanon meeting where chances are good that I will see xAP. Peel me off the ceiling please!! You are my life boat. I don't have to go to the meeting. But I would only go to see him This weekend has sucked.

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Registered: 04-23-2010
In reply to: sunrise
Sun, 03-06-2011 - 5:13pm
Don't throw it all away! Please...get sick or something...quick.

We only miss what could have been. I know I don't miss what it really was.

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Registered: 01-24-2011
In reply to: sunrise
Sun, 03-06-2011 - 5:23pm

Sunrise, Read back over some of your earlier posts and see how far you have come. It may not feel like it right now, but you have learnt and healed so much over the last month, and I have been so proud to watch you grow. Do you really want to

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Registered: 07-17-2004
In reply to: sunrise
Sun, 03-06-2011 - 5:26pm
Sunrise, think of why you go to alnon and the tools you have learned there. Find another meeting if needed, Alnon should be your safe place and not about xap. Take a deep breathe and try and clear your thoughts. Xap will not fill what you maybe searching for, you need to search within yourself and let the fanasty of what you think xap provides go. I hope the feeling has passed and you are focusing on you who is most important and not a fleeting feeling that could cause you more pain in the long run if acted upon. Big hugs to you Sunrise, I am sending positive vibes your way:-)
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Registered: 10-14-2010
In reply to: sunrise
Sun, 03-06-2011 - 6:25pm

SUNRISE!

YOU WILL NOT GO ANYWHERE NEAR WHERE that jam will be.

You have the option to go to ANYOTHER ALANON meeting. Or dont go. whatever it takes.

YOU KNOW it is NOT worth it to play with this fire. YOU WILL GET BURNT.

STOP YOURSELF.

CHOOSE THE HEALTHY PATH FOR YOURSELF.

Love to you,

M

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
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Registered: 10-14-2010
In reply to: sunrise
Sun, 03-06-2011 - 6:37pm

Sunrise,

Do you have a husband at home?

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
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Registered: 09-28-2010
In reply to: sunrise
Sun, 03-06-2011 - 6:47pm

YOU absolutely need to make the decision right now to WAKE UP. IF you choose to go to that Alanon meeting - KNOWING that there is a good chance he will be there (scratch that - that there is even a SMALL chance) ... YOU know that YOU will be in harms way. YOU are no longer in denial ... YOU know that you're NOT strong right now, craving a fix, and so YOU MUST CHOOSE whether you are going to ignore it all for your "high" or ENDURE THE PAIN with the unrelentling belief, faith, hope that LIFE IS MEANT TO BE BETTER THAN THIS FOR YOU.

YOU want to support your daughter to be addiction free? YOU HAVE GOT TO BE A LIVING EXAMPLE.

Find another meeting, or tell your husband he has to go with you. There are your ONLY CHOICES SUNRISE.

With care,

TU.

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Registered: 11-22-2009
In reply to: sunrise
Sun, 03-06-2011 - 7:20pm

Sunrise,

According to the time stamp on your post, it's been two hours since your wrote it. So how about chiming in here and letting all of the people on this forum who have been reaching out to you all weekend KNOW that you did not go.

Be where you are; otherwise you will miss your life. ~ Buddha
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Registered: 10-14-2010
In reply to: sunrise
Sun, 03-06-2011 - 7:38pm

Sunrise,

I dont mean to sandbag you by COMPLETELY CONCURRING with what Iddy just said, but ITS THE TRUTH.

When you post cryptically like that - BUT THEN dont follow back through and stay connected to what you're reaching out for, It's going to look like you're crying wolf.

Now granted, You dont have to take the advice given.

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
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Registered: 11-16-2010
In reply to: sunrise
Sun, 03-06-2011 - 8:00pm

I will second what Kat has said here,

Who do you want to be Sunrise? the woman in the truck? or the honoroble mother and wife?

As a mother of daughters myself, what message are we sending out to our daughters? and your daughter who has overcome addiction, how do you think she will cope if she found out about her mum? Given the vulnerable place that she is in right now.

Please Kat, i beg you, those short-lived highs are just not worth all of the above, please.

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Registered: 01-24-2011
In reply to: sunrise
Sun, 03-06-2011 - 8:18pm

Sunrise, it's Kat here again, just checking-in to see how you're doing?

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