Made two more choices!

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-13-2010
Made two more choices!
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Mon, 03-07-2011 - 1:53pm

I just journaled about what I would want to say to xAP if I broke NC.

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-31-2009
Mon, 03-07-2011 - 2:26pm

Hooray for you, Sunrise!!

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-14-2010
Tue, 03-08-2011 - 12:31pm

Good choices, Sunrise!!!!

"Just put one foot in front of the other.....and Soon you'll be walking out the door!!!!"

Personally, what I chose to do with my thoughts of the xap in the beginning was NOT allow myself to go there.

I diverted every single thought - good bad or otherwise - and used it as a snap on the wrist to think of MYSELF.

That worked for me - because it got me to STABLE GROUND - FOCUSED ON ME until I am now, more able to look at him / what he did - how he harmed me (how I let him) Im able to balance things now that in my early days of fog and romantic idealization - It was NOT a good idea for me, to entertain ANY thoughts of him.

As with anything it's about balance - and not losing sight of your self focus and responsibility.

I really enjoy the time where he is NOT on my mind even a sliver.

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010