Another fun Father's Day...Not - Trigs

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Registered: 05-02-2006
Another fun Father's Day...Not - Trigs
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Sun, 06-18-2006 - 5:33pm

Hi all. I had hoped that today would have been non-eventful in my household but it was not. Today was the 3rd Father's Day I have spent without my dad and while I thought I was going to be able to handle it, my SI habits kicked into high gear. Since I don't have my knives and blades I chose to no eat. I'm already borderline eating disorder. Then my 2 younger kids called their father to wish him a happy father's day and each left him a message and he never returned the call. This only added to my anxiety. So now I'm feeling even worse than I have been for the past week. And I don't know how to get stable again.


Well thanks for listening.


Traci

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Registered: 05-22-2006
Hi Traci - I am so sorry! It's horrible what x's can inflict on their innocent, hopeful children. And we always carry the guilt for them because it pains us to see our kids get hurt, even though it's not our fault and we have no control over it. My mother always told me to keep my mouth shut about him (xh) because our dd would eventually see him for what he is and that is just happening this year - she will be 19 next month! It has been a long row to hoe, especially during all the times she loved that %&$*@! more (always I had to be the "bad guy"). My dad has been passed 11 years now, youngest dd never knew him and that's a shame - he was a great guy. Loving thoughts, prayers, and hugs sent to you, Kelli





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Registered: 12-12-2005

I am sorry to hear about your day. But I can relate. My mom has been gone 14 yrs now. And my mothers day was sucky. But I do have to say it does get easier with time. You never get over but you do get thru it. I hope it gets better for you.


Huggs,


jo

Johanna


(and her fur-babies)


(Peanut & Buster)


IT'S NOT HAVING WHAT YOU WANT, IT'S WANTING WHAT YOU HAVE.


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Registered: 09-01-2004

Traci,


You will get through this and get up and get going like you always have!

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Registered: 05-02-2006

Thanks everyone. I really appreciate what you have said, and guess I needed to hear it. I was at a point where I was going to call my tdoc which I hate doing especially on the weekends but reading your posts I don't think I need to bother her.


Marci I'll look up that song.As a fellow country music buff it shouldn't be too hard to find. Thank you my friend.


Hugs,


Traci

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Registered: 04-06-2005

I'm so sorry you had such a rough day.

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