of all things for dd to get.....
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of all things for dd to get.....
| Wed, 06-21-2006 - 7:11am |
chicken pox....can you beleive it?
if it's not head lice...it's this.
so NOW i hear it's running thru the 5th grade vaccine or no vaccine.
so she misses her big graduation & beautiful dress & she is devastated.i start camp next week with the children of mothers WAY more neurotic than i am(example:"would it be ok if i came to camp with her?"(WTH??????)
this ying comes after a big ole yang.i was so ready to throw my h out the door.besides the fact that i had to pay the huge debt he racked up under my name,his drinking has gotten out of control.last weekend i made the mistake of too much wine on top of my meds(so it was me drinking too)i woke up in the night so sick that i WISHED i would die.i screamed for my h & finally woke a dd to go get him & he was doing the wake up & talk total gibberish thing he does when he's dead drunk.in the morning he passed it off as being very tired.poor dd had to help me.
then on monday night after i went to bed(the heat makes me xtra tired)the girls ran upstairs to tell me daddy was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO drunk.he had actually peed in the driveway.i hate to admit that my meds had just taken hold & i had trouble waking up.i told them to come upstairs to bed.in the morning i felt like there was something i was supposed to remember but i didn't know what.i was ashamed that they had to remind me(i found them all in the morn sleeping on the living room floor so i don't know what went on,if they all made up or if he just allowed them to watch tv till they dropped.
so of course i hated him altho he shrugged the whole thing off.
antway...now i NEED him.i have no one else around in an emergency.i feel totally stuck when something like this happens.helpless.i can't even have a JOB.
besides,without him i'd most likely have to give up treatment,right?then i WOULD be incompetent to care for the gils.
but,next time he tells them that they can't live with me cause i'm mentally ill,i have these episodes in my favor.i mean at least i'm GETTING HELP,right?
if it's not head lice...it's this.
so NOW i hear it's running thru the 5th grade vaccine or no vaccine.
so she misses her big graduation & beautiful dress & she is devastated.i start camp next week with the children of mothers WAY more neurotic than i am(example:"would it be ok if i came to camp with her?"(WTH??????)
this ying comes after a big ole yang.i was so ready to throw my h out the door.besides the fact that i had to pay the huge debt he racked up under my name,his drinking has gotten out of control.last weekend i made the mistake of too much wine on top of my meds(so it was me drinking too)i woke up in the night so sick that i WISHED i would die.i screamed for my h & finally woke a dd to go get him & he was doing the wake up & talk total gibberish thing he does when he's dead drunk.in the morning he passed it off as being very tired.poor dd had to help me.
then on monday night after i went to bed(the heat makes me xtra tired)the girls ran upstairs to tell me daddy was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO drunk.he had actually peed in the driveway.i hate to admit that my meds had just taken hold & i had trouble waking up.i told them to come upstairs to bed.in the morning i felt like there was something i was supposed to remember but i didn't know what.i was ashamed that they had to remind me(i found them all in the morn sleeping on the living room floor so i don't know what went on,if they all made up or if he just allowed them to watch tv till they dropped.
so of course i hated him altho he shrugged the whole thing off.
antway...now i NEED him.i have no one else around in an emergency.i feel totally stuck when something like this happens.helpless.i can't even have a JOB.
besides,without him i'd most likely have to give up treatment,right?then i WOULD be incompetent to care for the gils.
but,next time he tells them that they can't live with me cause i'm mentally ill,i have these episodes in my favor.i mean at least i'm GETTING HELP,right?

Yes you are getting help and you will get better...things will get better...it doesn't seem like it now, but they will.
God could not be everywhere, so
i wasn't too fond of this vaccine in the 1st place.i'd prefer they get full blown chicken pox & be done with it!
That stinks! I got the pox from my DSD when I was 26. I had been married 2 months and she came home from school with them. Not fun at all. Preparation H or generic equivalent helps to reduce the blisters and minimize scarring.
Hope she gets better soon!