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Can't Think Of a title - Pos trigs??
| Thu, 06-22-2006 - 6:48pm |
Dd 16 met with tdoc today and apparently was watching me post my father's day thread. She then printed a rather large portion of this and gave it to tdoc. Well, tdoc knewmost of what was in the

Traci,
You are very lucky to have a dd who is "looking out for you". You should be very proud of her- in my opionion, that was a brave thing for her to do, along with a mature thing to do. I'm sure you could look at it negatively (as you could anything), but, once you get over the initial betrayal, or whatever emotion you are feeling about it, give her a big hug and a "thank you". She sounds like she is just as concerned about you as herself and wants to see you feeling better.
You and I share the same ultimate fear of the hospital. I pray that you are able to keep it together and make the necessary changes to keep yourself out of the hospital. I'm glad that the tdoc was looking out for your well-being, too.
Hugs,
Peg
I still think you should be i/p right now....but this is better then nothing.
God could not be everywhere, so
Traci...if your dd notices and is SCARED enough for you to do that...to risk your anger and any repercussions from you, by doing what she did with tdoc, something is NOT good here. You are really bad off, everyone is right. Why you keep fighting it, hoping it will just go away, I don't know...fear, I understand. But your life is MORE important than being afraid right now...you have 3 kids to take care of who are obviously seeing more than you realize they are.
TRIGGERS FOLLOWING.................................................
Deep down in yourself, you want to die. And its coming closer and closer to to the top. Traci...you gotta do something here, man. For real. This is not a game! Bipolar impulses are REAL. And you won't have any control over them!!! You're already on the edge. One more "thing" that your BP brain perceives as wrong, and that could be the trigger that does it. Not eating = let me disappear from all this. You can't. You have to be brave enough to face it head on.
By not seeking the best treatment you can for yourself right now, you are hurting yourself, and your children. I'm not sure if the BP will let you HEAR THAT, really hear it...and understand what I mean. But I hope so.
I guess your tdoc thinks she can work miracles. I hope she can. But honestly, you really need much more intensive treatment right now. Sometimes tdocs can make us feel worse, in trying to make us feel better.
I hope you'll call me if you need to.
Love you,
Keli
Traci, I to have fought hospitalization. And now that I look back at some of those times I see I should of really went. I know how you feel. But you will be doing not just for your self but you daughter. She loves you and wants you around for a very long time. So this will benefit both of you. You will be in my thoughts tonight. Huggs to you.
Huggs,
jo
Johanna
(and her fur-babies)
(Peanut & Buster)
IT'S NOT HAVING WHAT YOU WANT, IT'S WANTING WHAT YOU HAVE.