nasty abusive people

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nasty abusive people
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Sat, 06-24-2006 - 5:52pm

i cannot beleive the parents i've had to deal with since the camp season is close to starting.
i give myself credit for NOT losing it on the spot w/ these people altho i do immediately "lose my footing",meaning i suddenly don't know what to say.i stammer & repeat myself or i go blank. i also NEED to talk it to death afterwards.(did i do/say the wrong thing?was it me?was it them?how could they treat ME like that?)
in addition to the really angry looking for a fight people i have the ones who ask if they can COME to camp with their kids(i'm talking ages 8-13)
& i thought i was neurotic.
i had to put 2 of my counselors on hold b/c my boss is cheap.i felt awful.
he asked me couldn't i do it by myself & I panicked & i'll admit he almost had me but after a moment when i got my breath back i pretended he never said it.
by myself?do i want another nervous breakdown,especially while acheiving the feat of splitting myself in two?
my h says last summer it was a good project for me..i was recently out of the hospital(oh could you IMAGINE if these parents knew THAT?)& i had a positive attitude.
he says this summer ever since i got the job back(i had quit & then gotten the job back.it's a theater camp )i've been uptight & easily rattled & doubt myself alot.

i worry about alot lately.how i've either pushed away other mommy friendships or else they don't like me....i worry about the last of my income is all doled out to other people.it was alot of money & now i have none b/c the people who borrowed it knew i had it.in addition to the 15,000 i wracked up in mania(it hurts my head to think of it.most of it went to a psychic.plus another couple of thousand i gave her AFTER i swore i would never fall for her GARBAGE again.
there,i said it.now its gone.)it just made me feel better to know i had escape money.
now i don't have it.& for no good reason.
i'm feeling nervous & sorry for myself & i had to vent.
how do you all who work(with PEOPLE)get thru everyday?
................susan

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Registered: 09-01-2004
Sun, 06-25-2006 - 1:06pm

Susan,


Wish I had an answer for you, 'cause I don't, but deal with the same problem myself, so you're not alone.

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Registered: 05-24-2006
Sun, 06-25-2006 - 3:53pm
I have 3 children, my husbnd works 3rd shift and I work full time.. and the only way I make it though the day is with meds! I remember without them I wanted to punch everyone that came into my office, even before they opened their mouths!EVERYONE ANOYED ME!
Perhaps you should talk to your dr and see if there is another med you can be on or of she can change the ones you are currently on.
I wish you the best-
Unhappy
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Registered: 04-06-2005
Mon, 06-26-2006 - 8:45am

(((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))


I hope you are doing a little better today.....


I too think maybe your pdoc should add a med into your combo, at least for now.

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