Feeling blah

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Registered: 04-27-2006
Feeling blah
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Mon, 06-26-2006 - 2:21pm

Well because I have been having a hard time sleeping, I took a lot of Benedryl and xanax this weekend. It didn't hit me until 3am this morning. I slept most of the day. Wow some sleep...I hope it continues. I just hope I don't have to pump Benedryl and xanax in me to do so. I started th B and xanax Friday night, nothing, so I increased how much I took last night.


I decided to stop worrying about my blood tests and wait to find out from the doctors what they mean and what to do IF anything is wrong. I have already been through so much and I don't want to go through anything else, but I am a survivior and I will get through whatever they say. I may have symptoms they can't do anything about.


I have been really depressed though, just spacing out and I can't watch a movie all the way through, I can't read, I can barely hold a conversation. My mind is totally out there. I don't know what the heck is going on with that. I am hateing it bad. I have been very sensitive too, Billy or anyone can say something and I think they are putting me down, or if I am not in the room I feel they are talking about me. Is that paranoia?


Tina




     ~ Tina ~

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Registered: 05-22-2006
In reply to: a_new_me394
Mon, 06-26-2006 - 3:14pm
I know this sounds silly but how's the weather where you are? I ask because it's been so rainy and yuck everywhere. I am very sensitive to weather and seasons and have been diagnosed with SAD, seasonal affective disorder. If it rains for more than 2 days here, I get depressed and I'm in FL!
I also have an inclination to paranoia and the only thing that helps me is by talking myself out of it. I know, also silly, but sometimes I literally have to tell myself over and over that whatever I think is happening, is not really happening. Anxiety makes it worse.
I am sorry you're having such a crappy day - I hope it gets better soon! Hugs, Kelli





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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: a_new_me394
Mon, 06-26-2006 - 3:28pm

Hey Tina,

I too have been taking Benedryl with my Ativan to sleep...can't sleep otherwise...ugh. But then, I am sleepy and groggy all day the next day. That might have something todo with your feeling blah. I have got to try to stop the Benedryl myself, tonight. I just need the sleep too! Its a double edged sword, isn't it?

I wish I could take your depression away forever. You deserve that!

Love you,

Keli