Really Strange Encounter - Poss Trigs
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| Mon, 06-26-2006 - 11:43pm |
Okay, so Friday I pack the kids and my mother up, hitch the camper up to the truck and head down to the lake that is about 4 hours away. Half-way down the road I started things in the road the I knew couldn't possibly be there. So I reasoned with myself and stopped at a rest stop and just kind of got a grip and took to the road again thinking that maybe the rest was all that was needed. Well, I started seeing things that weren't there again.
The kids were ok for the most part, even my mother for the most part was well behaved. I, on the other hand, felt like (and still feel like) I am on the edge of just snapping totally. Is this possible? Am I going to snap? If I'm repetative, I'm sorry, but I can't remember much of anything, which is another thing I've noticed and wondered if I was working toward a breakdown.
Thanks for listening.
Traci

TRraci...like I told you last night...this is the beginning of psychosis...yes, a breakdown of sorts...i know you don't want to hear this, but YOU HAVE TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL. When you start hallucinating (I have done this each time), that's your brain's way of shutting down, and telling you you need immediate help.
You are not stable...when we as Bipolars are not stable, we are MUCH MORE "irrational" and "impulsive". I'm scared for your safety at this point.
Only you can help yourself right now...we can tell you 50 million times what you should do...but only YOU can make the decision.
YOU CALL ME anytime, I mean it...I know you are scared. Its very scary...but the things you are seeing are NOT real, and at least right now you still know that. If you let it go, its going to get MUCH worse. MUCH worse. Believe me on that, please.
We love you and we want you better. Stop suffering so needlessly. Okay?
Keli
I agree with Keli...you NEED to go to the hospital to get well. Do this for your kids and yourself. This is part of taking care of yourself.
Tina
~ Tina ~
Traci
Keli said everything that needs to be said. You KNOW what needs to be done, you have the strength to do it even though your mind tries to fool you otherwise. You just have to make the decision.
Tracey
you really need to tell tdoc, know you don't want to, but you need to.
God could not be everywhere, so
Thank you all for your your input. It's clear what you all think is in my best interest. I guess I don't get is that I've only had the one episode on Friday as far as seeing things. Now the confusion/not remembering has been going on longer.
I know I', grasping at straws here but y'all know how much I like the alternative. And as for using this against xh, Donna, you're probably right. I'm
we can only hope....just BE HONEST with them !!!
you are not in a good place right now...period, end of story
God could not be everywhere, so he created mothers.
"You win some, you lose some, you wreck some." -- Dale Earnhardt"I get up. I walk. I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing." – Rabbi Hillel
God could not be everywhere, so
I can tell just by your posts what's going on...your spelling is off...your typing is off...same thing happens to me...i didn't see things ALL the time either...once is enough, ya know? The shaking can be part of it, or meds related. The point is, you don't know.
Your thinking is NOT clear. You are not rational. That's why its so urgent that you seek real help fast. You don't want to do something you regret in a wave of impulsivity.
You have tried med adjustments for a long time now...but like we have all said, its only up to you to get the help you need.
Let me know what's going on.
Keli