Kinda bummed... have to vent
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| Mon, 07-17-2006 - 4:05am |
I'm going to vent a little bit, I don't need any responses but they'd prolly help me feel a little better. UGH!
So, Sunday morning. I was scheduled to work at 1230 and I was sleeping at like 1030 and my cousin calls me, she works with me, she said that our manager said not to come in because they weren't going to be very busy. Well, he said that last sunday, AND he scheduled me only 2 days last week, one of them was a day a requested off because I was going to a concert. I talked to the other manager and he gave me that day off, so I didn't work at all last week. I've been getting crappy hours, 2 days a week pretty much, and then I don't even get to stay the whole time, they send me home after like 2 hours, and other days they tell me not to even come in. The last time I worked was the 6th. I needed a job where I work like 4 days a week because my last job overworked me like, 35 hours a week during school. Anyway, since I wasn't working I called my boyfriend to tell him that I wasn't working today just to let him know. Then I went back to sleep and whatever. I got up a while later and did some stuff, took a shower and then I called him. He said he had to do some stuff before I came over. So I went in to work to get my check from last week. While I was there I checked this week's schedule, I only work Friday. After that I went over to my aunts house for a while and met my parents there and talked with my parents and my aunt and my grandma for a while. Then my boyfriend calls me and tells me I can go over there. I went over and his friend Danny was there.
Now. Danny and I used to be friends. It's because of him and this kid AJ who we're all friends with that I met my boyfriend. At the beginning of the school year last year I drove Danny to school because we live down the street from each other and we hung out alot during the summer and we were friends. Well, eventually I stopped giving him rides for whatever reason. After that he stopped talking to me. He's the kind of person who only talks to people when he wants something. When I realized that I kind of didn't want anything to do with him. Ryan knows that but he wanted to hang out with him anyway because they used to be friends too. Our friend AJ told us once that Danny told him that Ryan and I don't know eachother well enough. I don't even know what that means, it makes me mad! He has no right to say that, he doesn't talk to us, he doesn't know what we talk about. UGH!!
So, Danny is over there, the whole time I'm over there they ignored me. I mean seriously pretty much payed no attention to me except for like 4 times. That kind of made me mad because Saturday night on the phone Ryan told me he'd give me a massage the next day because my muscles were bothering me. I didn't get it which was fine but I was kind of looking forward to it. When I left Ryan said he'd call me at like 2 in the morning . He called at like 230 and was like "I'm so sorry I didn't call, me and Danny are still busy and so I'll just talk to you tomorrow, ok?" and I was like "yea" and he apologized for not giving me a massage and for ignoring me. I said it was fine, we got off the phone, but then I sat there and the whole thing kind of bugged me. Then I thought about it more and whenever Ryan is with Danny he acts different, but in a bad way. He's on;y done that like twice though. But it's really bothering me for whatever reason. ! oh well. I'm going to go to sleep now, I just really needed to vent! =]
Amy

i know alot of people here don't beleive in giving their advice,but i remember all too well being your age(& not even being diagnosed or treated yet..making my judgement that much worse.)
ditch him.
you will always be second to his friends.
it's an absolutely awful feeling.
I don't know because he doesn't do that ever. He's usually a really good boyfriend. I don't think it's worth breaking up with him over, I've had plenty of bad boyfriends so I know what to look for to see if it's another bad one. He's not, he was just doing stuff with Danny and was busy. They were trying to write a song, they did ask me for input and stuff. It's not like I was sitting there trying to ask them stuff and they were like "no, not right now" or anything, if I talked to them they'd stop and talk to me, but I didn't want to interupt them. It's the same as when he was with me and my best friend, my best friend and I talked pretty much the whole time, he doesn't like my friend very much so he kinda left himself out of everything. It's like, almost the exact same situation. It was just late and I needed sleep so I was crabby lol. Thanks though =]
Amy
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