Haven't been here in a little while but

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Haven't been here in a little while but
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Mon, 07-17-2006 - 6:32am

need some support.

I have been lurking some. I have been denying my bp status yet again (though still taking most of my meds). I started a job (due to separation with dh, after being SAHM for last 12 years) which I actually like but the adjustment is rough. My 3yo had a horrible first week in child care center, to the point that I may have to report the center. Both of my smaller boys will start with a new sitter today. And I have a court date tommorrow to try to order child support payments, where stbx will be trying to sell the house now (which I don't really mind) and make me pay almost all bills despite the fact that he makes tons more money than me. ( he used to support us all and I am just a med. asst. just starting out again). So with all that, the stress has caused me to freak out. I am bouncing between crying fits and hypomania so quickly your head would spin. I am not sleeping at all. I can't seem to make any decisions at all. STBX laughs at all this. My family is worried sick. I don't even know where I am at night and things don't seem real. I can't see my pdoc because of my work hours. What can I do? Do you think this can be bp or just stress? I am not on a real mood stablizer just topomax and cymbalta. Pdoc wants me on abilify but I am fighting it. Should I try starting that at night? (it makes me sleepy during the day?). Sometimes I am great and patient, other times I am so snappy and irritable over nothing. God, I hate this and I hate me.

Well, I gotta go get ready for work. I will check back in this evening. I hope everyone has an OK day.

Marci - congrats on the new baby.

Donna - What's up?

Missy

 
 
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Mon, 07-17-2006 - 7:43am

Missy,

Sorry to hear you're having a rough time. All that stress would make anyone agitated. I take abilify at night and it works great for me.

Hugs,
Morgaine

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Registered: 04-06-2005
Mon, 07-17-2006 - 9:47am

(((((((((((((((((((Missy))))))))))))))))))


I'm so sorry you are having a rough start to it all....I'm sure most of this is stress and going thru everything so quickly.....


your 'h' should be paying something right now....just b/c the divorce is not final means nothing...my xh did the same thing !!

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Mon, 07-17-2006 - 11:45am

(((((((((Missy))))))))) I understand what you're going through with STBX. Mine did the same garbage when we split. It's all a head game for him and he knows what buttons to push. I agree with Donna in maybe trying the abilify at night. My DD takes it at night and it seems to really help her both with sleep and mood.


As for how to be able to see your pdoc, again I think Donna's suggestion was a good one, if you are able to do that. Otherwise, maybe you can explain your situation to your pdoc and he can work something out with you?


You always know we're here for you. Post as often as you want to. We've missed you hon.


Hugs,
Traci