Work

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Registered: 10-23-2004
Work
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Mon, 07-17-2006 - 8:19am

Well, I'm awake and dressed but I so don't want to go to work. I'm seriously considering calling in sick. I'd only have to reschedule one meeting. However, I came in late and left early on Friday. I'm just so stressed. I really want to be alone. I don't want to go be around all those people. I don't know why I feel so stressed. Its not like my life is horrible or anything. Rationally, I know I have a great life but I feel terrible. I guess "strung out" would be a good word for it. I told my new boss (my old one was promoted) I was bp last week. She was very understanding. I wanted her to know why I was leaving work early and coming in late sometimes. I'm not in a bad place right now but I can feel things building and I don't like it. I'm living a reasonably healthy lifestyle (not too much caffeine/alcohol and some exercise) but I still feel like I'm slipping. *sighs* I just can't get motivated.

Now that I've written a little I think the problem is the meeting I have today. Its to work on a very big/important project that is sort of "my baby." The problem is that its turning out to be much more complicated that I originally believed and I'm unsure of my ability to get it done. Skipping the meeting only puts it off until later but, at the moment, that sounds like a stellar idea :-). I have been having a lot of trouble focusing on work lately. Normally, I jump into it and, generally, enjoy myself. I have a job doing exactly what I want to do. Its interesting and challenging. At least I usually think so.

I'm sitting here telling myself I'll clean the house if I stay home but I probably won't. Sitting on the couch doing crosstich all day sounds like a good plan. I started a new project yesterday. I'm already in the middle of a big one but I just love starting new ones. Its turning out to be very tedious. I've never worked on linen before but its a real bear (the holes in the fabric are very tiny and close together). Anyhow, I'll quit rambling now. I think I will stay home.

Morgaine

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Registered: 05-22-2006
In reply to: morgaine_iv
Mon, 07-17-2006 - 9:00am
I feel your pain! I came in today. I figure I can make it till the end of Thursday because then 2 of the 3 bosses will be in Russia till August 15th and the other is currently in Montana on a horseback riding trip. How hard can it be, right? AGH! I forgot I had a property management meeting in exactly 3 mins and I hate it - it's my least favorite job duty. Sitting here reading your post felt sooooo similar (I am totally project oriented and have lots of home ones going). I have to go now. I have that meeting. It's overcast and I have a couch and dogs and a book at home just calling my name. F*ck. Pardon my French.
Sigh.............. Kelli





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Registered: 10-23-2004
In reply to: morgaine_iv
Mon, 07-17-2006 - 9:04am

Ok. I'm not done talking yet I guess. I did call in to work. Rather than call the front desk I called one of my friends and had him put that I was out on sick leave. We have a little tracking program on our computers that says where we are. I always feel bad about calling the front desk. I feel like I have to explain myself even though they don't ask. I also called the person who scheduled the meeting and he was very understanding. I don't feel so bad about it now. I think the meeting will be pleasant and productive when we have it.

I posted to the "get organized" board to rededicate myself to an organized lifestyle. I think getting a handle on the children is key. I have 3 (10, 13, 15). I have assigned them chores but they don't do them very well and I don't stay on top of it. I'd rather just do it myself but I know they need to learn. Anyhow, I started cleaning the house. I might actually get some things done today. I know I'll feel so much better if I do something and if I have a nice clean house.

Morgaine

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Registered: 05-02-2006
In reply to: morgaine_iv
Mon, 07-17-2006 - 11:54am

Morgaine I think you probably did the right thing in calling in. It sounds like you really need it. However, I'd call your pdoc, if you haven't already, and let him/her know about the slipping feeling you are describing. When the swings come in that is a big indicator, and maybe your meds might need to be adjusted. Just a thought.


Anyway, enjoy your day of R&R and take care.


Hugs,
Traci