Mixed again

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Registered: 05-02-2006
Mixed again
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Mon, 07-17-2006 - 5:28pm

Well, I've been pretty level for the past several days, but I'm in my mixed state right now and am hoping that it's short lived and that I even out again soon. What worries me is that my mixed states are usually right before a deep bout of depression. An increased need for sleep, an extremely short fuse, having racing thoughts on things that I could be doing but no energy to initiate any of the ideas.


I've been here too many times before and fear what usually happens. I usually end up at one end of the spectrum or the other and it's never good. I have a call in to my tdoc about something else, maybe I'll run it by her if she calls me back. I hate to bug

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Registered: 10-23-2004
Mon, 07-17-2006 - 5:39pm

Traci,

{{{hugs}}}
I can *so* empathize with you. I was wondering how to tell the difference between a "mixed" state and rapid cycling? I have always thought I am a rapid cycler but maybe I've just had lots of mixed states. I've never really discussed it with pdoc. I don't suppose it matters as long as the meds work but I am curious. Anyhow, I hope you can forestall a "crash." Those are no fun. I also know how you feel about bugging pdoc. I'm considering the very same. I've never actually talked with her outside of an appointment so it makes me nervous. Of all the symptoms I think the "short fuse" bugs me the most. I don't like yelling at dh and the kids. One thing dh and I have noticed is that being outside makes a difference for me. I can only assume its the sunlight. I have considered starting to tan (perhaps even with sunblock) for that reason. Can you spend some time outside? That always helps me.

Morgaine

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Mon, 07-17-2006 - 9:37pm

Thanks Morgaine. I guess the way I tell the difference is because both moods are present at the same time versus going from one mood to another then back again. If that makes any sense.

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Registered: 10-23-2004
Tue, 07-18-2006 - 5:44am

Hmmm. Interesting on the mixed state. I think I've probably had those as well although I think I'm more prone to the rapid cycling. Anyhow, thanks for the info. My day off helped but I could use a few more. I did get the house clean but I was too "antsy" to sit down and do any crosstitch. Hope you have a nice day.

Morgaine

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Tue, 07-18-2006 - 6:37am

Traci,

Sorry to hear that you are having the mixed episodes; they are the pits. I also have the short fuse/irritability/snap over the smallest thing problem...ugh, it always makes me feel like a shmuck because it is usually my kids who are around to hear it.

Hopefully it will be a passing thing and not a precursor to an extreme. If you can find anything good about it, I guess you can be happy that you know your pattern of cycles and know what is typical for you so you can respond to it. I hope you hear back from your tdoc so you can talk to her today about it. Don't worry about "bugging" your tdoc or pdoc- for all the money we (or our insurance carrierers) are giving these people, a few phone calls won't kill them. I think as part of their job they should expect phone calls every once and a while from their clients, especially during crisis situations or to prevent one. To me, that is the purpose of having them, especially the pdoc.

Sending "stable vibes" your way.

Hugs,
Peg

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Registered: 05-22-2006
Tue, 07-18-2006 - 1:59pm
I swear something is in the water. Everyone I know is either depressed or angry or both. Myself included. Many hugs your way, Kelli





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