I am doing horribly...bad depression. can't stop crying...
very very very tired...not sleeping...pain from fibro is killing me...won't ease up.
called pdoc just now, and told work i was going home after i talked to my pdoc. asked pdoc for some seroquel, so i can sleep...sleep will help.
hope she is in this week.
and i also hope you all are doing much better.
i hate rapid cycling so mcuh.
but who cares what i hate, ya know? ever feel like that?????
sorry...i'm just way depressed. don't care much right now about anything...just wanna go home and get in bed and to hell with everything. just sleep for al ong time.
I'm doing okay today. I've been having to take quite a bit of xanax in order to feel "normal." My next pdoc appointment isn't until 8/11. I'm thinking of calling to see if it can be moved up. At least my kids are at my parents' house this week.
Not doing so hot right now. Just had a phone conversation with my xh. Those typically trigger me and this one was no different. He was asking me where the "new" papers (indicating a difference in the original set he received from my lawyer) were for him to sign. Well, first of all, my lawyer called yesterday and said she'd be sending them to him to sign, but they were pretty much what I was after originally. Secondly, when xh and I had the conversation about settling out of court, I was in that really bad place with the lithium toxicity and I don't remember exactly what I told xh would be in these *new* papers. So I don't know what he's expecting. So, I'm thinking this could get ugly.........as usual. I was really hoping that this could go without incident. I'm so tired of messing with this whole situation. I just want it done.
Anyway, that's where I'm at right now. I've got a call in to my lawyer to find out if she mailed him the papers. Hopefully she'll call me soon and tell me that she has. And, if she has that he'll sign them without incident. I really don't want this to drag out any longer.
I've cycled 5 times already today, right now I'm down. Nothing to extreme yet though and thank god no mixed yet.
Lithium is making me tired, maybe I'll just go sleep it all off.
Just got out of therapy session 2 with the 5th therapist. I hate therapy. You get attached and never want to leave, then have to leave. For two weeks. Ugh.
I must be honest. I have not been even-keeled this past month (7 months off meds). But the mood episodes have been brief (no more than 24 hours) and isolated. Last night I was pretty depressed, but today I'm okay.
If the episodes start happening more frequently or get more severe, I promise I'll go to my PDoc and get back on meds. :-)
I am not doing well. Not any different than yesterday. I am wondering if the Lithium is making me tired and adding to the depression. I know it is supposed to help all those things but it is weird that I feel this bad. I guess I am just reaching for a reason.
I am sorry to see that so much pain is going on right now with everyone because of this stupid illness.
Hello everyone! I am doing ok - no up or down, nice and flat. I'm in limbo-land until my pdoc visit on August 3rd. Sorry to hear everyone is having a tough time. Hugs, Kelli
How long have you been on lithium and what is your dosage? It could very well be having adverse effects. Call your pdoc and talk to him/her about it. It could be a temporary side effect of the med. I know that lethargy is one of the side effects. And tiredness does add to depression and the cycle just gets worse as one begets the other.
Hang in there sweetie and know we're here for you.
I am doing horribly...bad depression. can't stop crying...
very very very tired...not sleeping...pain from fibro is killing me...won't ease up.
called pdoc just now, and told work i was going home after i talked to my pdoc. asked pdoc for some seroquel, so i can sleep...sleep will help.
hope she is in this week.
and i also hope you all are doing much better.
i hate rapid cycling so mcuh.
but who cares what i hate, ya know? ever feel like that?????
sorry...i'm just way depressed. don't care much right now about anything...just wanna go home and get in bed and to hell with everything. just sleep for al ong time.
I'm doing okay today. I've been having to take quite a bit of xanax in order to feel "normal." My next pdoc appointment isn't until 8/11. I'm thinking of calling to see if it can be moved up. At least my kids are at my parents' house this week.
Morgaine
Hi, Traci here.
Not doing so hot right now. Just had a phone conversation with my xh. Those typically trigger me and this one was no different. He was asking me where the "new" papers (indicating a difference in the original set he received from my lawyer) were for him to sign. Well, first of all, my lawyer called yesterday and said she'd be sending them to him to sign, but they were pretty much what I was after originally. Secondly, when xh and I had the conversation about settling out of court, I was in that really bad place with the lithium toxicity and I don't remember exactly what I told xh would be in these *new* papers. So I don't know what he's expecting. So, I'm thinking this could get ugly.........as usual. I was really hoping that this could go without incident. I'm so tired of messing with this whole situation. I just want it done.
Anyway, that's where I'm at right now. I've got a call in to my lawyer to find out if she mailed him the papers. Hopefully she'll call me soon and tell me that she has. And, if she has that he'll sign them without incident. I really don't want this to drag out any longer.
Traci
Looks like no one's doing too great right now.
I've cycled 5 times already today, right now I'm down. Nothing to extreme yet though and thank god no mixed yet.
Lithium is making me tired, maybe I'll just go sleep it all off.
Just got out of therapy session 2 with the 5th therapist. I hate therapy. You get attached and never want to leave, then have to leave. For two weeks. Ugh.
Well this is my first check-in.
I must be honest. I have not been even-keeled this past month (7 months off meds). But the mood episodes have been brief (no more than 24 hours) and isolated. Last night I was pretty depressed, but today I'm okay.
If the episodes start happening more frequently or get more severe, I promise I'll go to my PDoc and get back on meds. :-)
I am not doing well. Not any different than yesterday. I am wondering if the Lithium is making me tired and adding to the depression. I know it is supposed to help all those things but it is weird that I feel this bad. I guess I am just reaching for a reason.
I am sorry to see that so much pain is going on right now with everyone because of this stupid illness.
Love ~ Tina
~ Tina ~
Hugs, Kelli
Tina ~
How long have you been on lithium and what is your dosage? It could very well be having adverse effects. Call your pdoc and talk to him/her about it. It could be a temporary side effect of the med. I know that lethargy is one of the side effects. And tiredness does add to depression and the cycle just gets worse as one begets the other.
Hang in there sweetie and know we're here for you.
Peace, Love & Light,
Traci