Truth triumphs...once again!! :)
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Truth triumphs...once again!! :)
| Sat, 03-19-2011 - 8:25pm |
Hello everyone,
I just wanted to post this to keep you all informed of my latest "toxic waste spill"...my T used the good analogy that now that my H knows everything about my A's, we will continue to deal with the "fallout" that these very dangerous and toxic situations bring with them.

Your strength amazes me, i cannot fathom what you have gone through these past couple of months. However, in all this havoc you must feel a huge sense of relief and freedom now that all is out in the open. I also think your H is an incredible man, i don't think my H would ever forgive me if he found out, and i would not blame him.
Thanks for recommending those titles.
All my love
V888
xxxxx
good to see you back here!! How was your week away?
Yes, I have gone through quite a bit of fallout since D-Day and somehow managed to keep my head on straight. I have a feeling that this is far from over, though. It seems that every day there is some attack to H and I from one or the other of these men. The important thing is though that we are each on our separate journeys of healing as well as the journey to healing our M. And we also have a strong faith - i know that for me, my faith in God is the only thing that is providing the strength to make it through these
attacks. And it is truly a miracle that H has been so loving and forgiving. I never thought or imagined he would be...he had every right to send me packing. He is a pastor. But he had compassion on me, though his heart was breaking and he felt intense pain. I can never take that pain away from him, but as I said in my post, I can "see" him in a way that I could not even before the A. We are broken and ready to rebuild from the ground up. Make this M stronger than ever. Just know, V888, that even if you think H could never forgive you for something as damaging as an A, there is that hope that he will. Miracles can and do happen. And D-days can happen even after we go NC and are out of A-land. I never, ever thought I would experience a D-day. And you know what? I am so thankful that I did. :) I no longer live in that paralyzing fear. I no longer have a huge secret to hide about the double life I had to live during the A. My burden has been lifted and truth is just pouring into my heart like you wouldn't believe. It is calming, soothing and refreshing. And it helps me to come to a point where I am no longer "missing" the feelings that A-land brought. I am reconnecting with H, the love of my life. No secret love - real love. :)
Take care, V888 and thank you for all of your encouragement.
Hearts <3
Heart,
You are very lucky to have the H you have. I know of several MW whose H's walked away and never looked back.
Wow.
Hi Heart
It was productive, thankfully.
I have a lot happening within the next 3 months, and no doubt will be time poor, i will still be here because i find i get more from EAS than i do at
Hi Heart,
You are really blessed to have a H like yours.