problem with anger

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Registered: 12-29-2005
problem with anger
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Thu, 07-20-2006 - 4:29pm

When I was 1st dx w/bp it was because of my anger. Oh and the fact that i had been seeing things and didn't sleep for days. anyway... do any of you or did you have that problem? it lasted for months. my dh was afraid to leave my son with me alone. I'm so much better now. The meds really have helped. What have you done to help controll your anger? I go to sleep if i can. Or at least get away for a few minutes. I'm just trying to be ready for when (if) i get off these meds. I would like to hear your stories.

April

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Registered: 10-23-2004
Thu, 07-20-2006 - 5:41pm

April,

Anger is a huge problem for me. I get irrationally angry over really dumb things. Sometimes I just wake up mad for no good reason. When my meds aren't right, that is. Just to give you an example. I came home the other day and I couldn't fit something easily in the fridge because there was a pan in there with fish dh had caught the previous weekend. I called him at work to gripe at him. FYI, I normally try not to interrupt him at work because he is a martial arts instructor and it may pull him off the floor. I wasn't just irritated. I was so mad I started slamming things around and almost threw something. I have also been known to throw things although not lately. The good news is that since I'm on meds I usually come back to sanity relatively quickly and realize I'm being unreasonable. Before starting on meds I really thought things were dh's fault and I was nearly ready to divorce him (about two months after we were married). Sleep helps me also. When things get real bad I'll take some extra meds and try to knock myself out and sleep it off. Anyhow, that's my story.

Hugs,
Morgaine

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Registered: 07-14-2005
Thu, 07-20-2006 - 5:44pm
April... I used to be the calmest person before I got bipolar and now I'm so angry ALL THE TIME lately and I don't know what to do. I'm either angry and full of energy and throwing things around. Or I'm angry and in bed crying. Or I'm crying and screaming back and forth. I don't know what to tell you as I haven't figured it out yet myself. I try to distract myself but nothing works. Reading, watching tv, exercising. Yesterday I was angry and decided to go swim laps. A few laps into it I was just so distraught I got out and curled up in a ball at the end of the lane and started crying. I'm sure other people thought I was insane, but they wouldn't have been completely wrong, now would they? I'd be really interested, too, to see what people have to say about anger.
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Registered: 05-02-2006
Thu, 07-20-2006 - 7:08pm

Unfortunately, my kids can attest to my anger. For example, I posted a few days ago about how I totally lost it when I had to assist my ds with a trash bag that was over-flowing. I started throwing the trash around the kitchen. That's just one small example of how I snap when my meds aren't right. As for ever coming off meds, pdoc and tdoc both think it highly unlikely. Unless someone miraculously finds a cure. Nice dream, but I don't hold much faith in that happening.


As to what I do to calm down...........much like the op have said, I try to sleep it off, go for a walk, or just somehow remove myself from my target at that point. I guess the important thing is that I recognize it before I actually cause harm or injury. And, I guess for that I have my tdoc to thank. She has helped me recognize signs that I'm getting ready to blow. I start getting short with my answers for example. I get easily miffed at stupid things, and with my job (I drive a school bus) there's a lot of those), and when I'm on my bus I have to deal with the anger in a "professional" manner. That is hard to do. But I usually just take a deep breath or two or three and calmly address the situation. If that doesn't work, I write up the individual at my first opportunity.


Long and short, it's really a learning process. It's different for all of us, but at the same time very much the same. I hope this helps you somewhat. Keep posting and remember we're here for you.


Peace, Love, & Light,
Traci