Saw tdoc today.....trigs

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Saw tdoc today.....trigs
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Tue, 07-25-2006 - 2:31pm

I went in and was totally honest with her instead of my usual vagueness and beating around the bush. I told her that for the past two days I've been planning different methods of suicide. I also told her that even though part of me wants this the other part of me doesn't. Does that make sense? Well, she handed me her cell phone and made me call my pdoc right then and there to tell her this. So, I did and got her voice mail. I left a message and she called me back within 5 minutes. We've decided to try the lithium again at a low dose, because it was working and the low dose wasn't toxic to my system. It was when the dose got high that I had problems. So both tdoc and pdoc were happy. I just hope I'll be happy when this is all said and done. I'm so sick of this I could scream. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. I want to find a balance. One people keep telling me exists. My tdoc got on me after I talked to pdoc about eating and drinking plenty of water. The water I have no problem with. The eating thing is something else entirely. But I guess I have to try if I want to avoid problems with the lithium again. So I will start the lithium again tonight and go from there. I could use some p & pt that this works. Otherwise I don't know what to do next. Thanks for listening.


Traci

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Tue, 07-25-2006 - 4:23pm

I'M SO PROUD OF YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


you went in, you were honest and let it all out.....now they can help you better...I think the lower dose will be great, especially if it was working before.

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Registered: 07-14-2005
Tue, 07-25-2006 - 4:25pm

Traci-

I'm so glad you just got everything out there and got something done. My guess is that if you drink enough water and eat on a regular schedule you'll be ok on a low dose. Since it works for you and you know it, you must be feeling such a sense of relief right now!

Congrats on speaking up. That takes courage. Oh, and what you were saying about wanting it but not wanting it, that really makes sense to me too. I told my mom I haven't killed myself because I'm afraid of the grave. I think that's sort of along the same lines...

Anyway, I hope it starts working quickly!
Meg

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Wed, 07-26-2006 - 8:14am

Traci,


opening up to your tdoc and pdoc was a brave thing to do and I know it was hard for you and I am sure scary too. Getting things out makes it easier for them to help you. I hope the Lithium works at a low dose. Hang in there....P&PT's your way.


Love ya---Tina




     ~ Tina ~

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Registered: 05-22-2006
Wed, 07-26-2006 - 10:30am
Good luck on your new dosage schedule and many hugs! Kelli





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Wed, 07-26-2006 - 6:31pm

Traci,

I'm so glad you were honest. That can be very difficult. It sounds like pdoc and tdoc took you seriously and are working to help you. Just hold on a little longer. I'm crossing my fingers for you on the Lithium.

Morgaine