Of course I am now depressed...trigs

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Of course I am now depressed...trigs
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Thu, 07-27-2006 - 11:39am

typical...very typical. i'm really sick of this. the pain, the FATIGUE, the depression...just so sick of it. I want out of this body...don't want none of this anymore...sick of BP...just plain tired.

the fatigue from the MS is sooooo about to kill me...i'm truly and totally worn down and out. i sleep around 8-9 hours a night, and i am still so very tired.

my hands have these blistery bumps under the skin, are so swollen and ache like crazy. i'm feverish, have been for the last 3 or 4 days...can't think!!! am a bit confused and cannot concentrate for anything.

i have to work...i have to be here, and i feel terrible. sucks.

i have no real support here. i haven't told anyone but my dh, and of course, with us being separated now, i'm alone most of the time. i don't wanna tell my mom and dad...they'll just worry.

i have SO much to do. i have to register my son for his new school, we have to buy school clothes, shoes, etc...stuff i don't have the money for either. but i don't have a choice about that...my son is 6'1 or 2 now, and can't wear any of his clothes. i have a lot of work to do here at work too.

i guess i'm just rambling right now...but i am just SO tired and achy, and hurting, and UGH!!!!!

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Thu, 07-27-2006 - 12:36pm

((((((((((((((Keli))))))))))) I hear ya on being depressed and frustrated hon. When do you start back on the topamax? I'm keeping my fingers crossed that that helps the pain. And as for the depression, I wish I had the magic cure. I know mine is kicking me in the butt too. But we'll get through it together.


Is there any way that your x can help you with the school clothes for ds? He sounds like he's being very civil and accommodating, so

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Thu, 07-27-2006 - 1:13pm

I really wish there was something I could do to help the pain go away and then that may help the depression some. Is any of

     ~ Tina ~

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Thu, 07-27-2006 - 9:34pm
Keli I'm so sorry you're feeling so bad! I can't imagine what it must be like with your new diagnosis + depression + work + your son... ugh I know I'd be in shambles by now! But I know you're strong enough to make it through it :) I hope that by the time you get this you're feeling much better! What meds were you prescribed? I forgot. I hope that they help relieve your pain soon.
Hang in there,
Meg
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Thu, 07-27-2006 - 10:34pm

(((((Keli)))))


I kind of understand about not telling your parents, but maybe if they know it will take some pressure off you and what they expect you to do.

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Fri, 07-28-2006 - 9:16am

Hi Keli! I wanted to let you know that I have a close, personal friend who was dx'ed MS about 6 mos ago. She went through 2 years of "mystery" and misdx'ing before it was confirmed with a CT scan. She is big in the MS society and is currently taking Copaxone. I told her I knew of someone (not from where or anything at all personal) who was just dx'ed and Valerie wrote me this (because I was being vague and said I knew you thru my joke email list:)-
"well if you write to her tell her you have a friend that was dx last Dec....I chat with people as far as TX...I can tell her what websites to register with, everything else, etc...."
So if you are looking for help, info, and support, then Val can set you up - I have her email if interested! Just an offer, no pressure.
Good luck and many hugs, Kelli





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Fri, 07-28-2006 - 1:23pm

Kelli, I would LOVE to connect with someone who has information, etc. My email is kelly.williams@dep.state.fl.us, if you want, email me.

Thank you so much! I too was in the dark about what was going on for 2 years...sucks!!! But from what I've read, its very hard to dx. I've not had a CT scan, or MRI, only blood work, but I have ALL the classic symptoms.

Anyway, thanks again!

Keli

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Registered: 05-22-2006
Fri, 07-28-2006 - 11:14pm
Hi, sorry it has taken me so long to get back. I went home early sick today, everyone I know has strep. Anyway, I gave Val your info. Please know that she is a totally cool woman who will help you out! I didn't give any info otherwise, I think that is between us and the board, so just know that she is terrific and a fabulous MS survivor. Val is completely loving and she will help you any way she can. Anything else you need, just let me know - we all need to stick together. Hugs, Kelli





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