Check In - MANDATORY!!! :)

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Check In - MANDATORY!!! :)
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Fri, 07-28-2006 - 8:49am

Hey guys! Check in and let us know how you are!!! I feel like I've been missing in action, and have no idea how anyone is!!!

Love to all,

Keli

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Registered: 09-01-2004
Fri, 07-28-2006 - 10:22am

Not sure whether I'll have internet access after today--we're moving to a different motel and don't know if they have wifi.

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Fri, 07-28-2006 - 10:29am

For the first time in a long time, I'm cycling a bit. It seems that dealing with my mother's death is very stressful. But I haven't had to go to the er yet.

Express.
Beth "Petrouchka"

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Registered: 05-02-2006
Fri, 07-28-2006 - 12:06pm

Hi Keli. I'm here in VA. I'm not doing so hot, but I'm hoping the lithium kicks in soon. How are you feeling? Let us know.


Love You,
Traci

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Fri, 07-28-2006 - 12:33pm

Checking in.

Doing okay.

Hugs to those struggling.

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Fri, 07-28-2006 - 1:12pm

I feel sick of this. Lithium and lamictal going out. Depakote going in. I don't know and don't really care. Got my college transfer packet today... kinda sad knowing I'm not going to make it. Everythings falling to pieces and the only thing I can think is... I hope depakote doesn't make me hungry. How pathetic am I?

Hope you're feeling better today.

meg

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Registered: 12-12-2005
Fri, 07-28-2006 - 5:30pm

Hey all, sorry I haven't posted lately but it has been real crazy around here. I am in Pa and doing ok, I guess. After I am done reading all the postes I well give you all a full update. I hope all Is well with everybody.


Huggs to you all,


jo

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Registered: 02-14-2006
Fri, 07-28-2006 - 6:59pm

Was put into a partial hospitalization program this week... today was my second day in the program... it is physically and mentally exhausting. Program is tentatively projected to last two weeks, but we'll see... I'm struggling with decision making. Even the littlest things, like ordering take out from a menu is grossly overwhelming... hope it gets better...

Have a good weekend.

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Registered: 10-23-2004
Fri, 07-28-2006 - 7:03pm

Well.....

I certainly wouldn't want to miss a MANDATORY check in ;-).

I'm doing pretty decent but I'm sort of lonesome. Dh will be gone on business this weekend and that's normally the only time I get to see him.

My mission this weekend is the laundry. The situation is getting so bad that I can't find most of my gym clothes. This has been the status for the last few weeks. I have only been going to the gym when I have an appt with my trainer which is only twice a week and doesn't include cardio. Thus, I have been gaining weight. That's right. The laundry is to blame for my weight gain and lack of motivation :-).

Work just sucks lately. I can't seem to focus or get excited about what I'm doing (usually I can). I didn't take any Inderal today. The physical anxiety symptoms seem to be down to a low roar but I still don't think things are quite right mentally. I guess I'll get back on the wagon (the non-alcoholic sort) this weekend or next week. I'm sure that will make a big difference. I really need to eat well, sleep well, and exercise. If I could just do those consistently I know things would be so much better. *sighs* Anyhow, I really shouldn't complain too much. Things are going pretty well. Did I tell you guys I bought a new Jeep Liberty? Its shiny and red and I love it!

Morgaine

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Registered: 10-23-2004
Fri, 07-28-2006 - 7:16pm

Ophelia,

I'm so glad you're in a program of some sort. I can empathize with the decision making but it sounds like a real step up from where you were.

Hugs,
Morgaine

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Registered: 07-22-2006
Fri, 07-28-2006 - 10:29pm

Hi, since this was mandatory, I guess I should come out of hiding. It's hot in eastern PA so I've been spending time playing in the rain with the kids and in the pool. I haven't worked much at all this summer- about 8 or 9 hours per week, which is very uncharacteristic of me, especially when there is a great need to get stuff done (our school is moving so we need to pack everything up).

I was not very med compliant this week with my a/d because I was running out and I have to do mail order with my insurance...a pain, so it was cut back or run out. I took it as prescribed today so I am dealing with the whole side effect thing again. I hit 2 weeks with the topamax today so I increase that to 50mg tonight (2 pills). I don't have any major side effects at this low dose so I hope none show up with the increase. It hasn't really done anything for me positively, either. The only problem I am having is the weight loss, which was a problem before, but the topamax has increased the rate of loss even at 25mg. My mixed episode has seemed to go away, I think. I was "stable" about 3 days in the past 2 weeks. The other days I was either crying, hyper or both within the same day (but not at the same time). Everything is pretty short-lived though- the mood rarely lasts more than half of the day, sometimes only a few hours. The only consistent symptom right now is the irritablity- I hate that- everyone suffers and no one knows when I'm gonna blow, not even me, which is annoying.

So, I'm hanging in. Dh is still not convinced there is a problem or the need for a dx and meds, which never makes any of this easier- it just messes my brain up more and makes me feel like he is not part of my support system. But, we will figure this all out and make it work. Maybe if the meds work and my moods are stable, he will see the difference and realize how bad my behavior really is. I'm trying to get him to support me with the weight loss issue by not encouraging me to work out- but that isn't working so well either. He just doesn't get that any of this is a problem. I guess it's just denial. We talked a little last weekend when I admitted to him I was ready to go to the ER in the middle of the night, but that didn't even really help him see how much pain I'm in. He's scared, he keeps saying we will just take it one day at a time. He brought me flowers today. I know he cares, I just think he doesn't know what to do or say.

All in all, thing are going ok. Summer is going a little too fast and I will be back at work full time before I know it. I hope everyone is doing well. It seems like it's been a tough road for a lot of us recently. At least we have each other to talk to.

Hugs,
Peg

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