Hi sunrise, is there anyone on your life who you could do something for today? Bake a cake? Take a child to the park? Send a card? Help a friend to tackle some chores in her home or garden? Visit someone who is unwell? When I felt at my lowest, it was those small acts of service that helped to restore my belief in myself and my belief in the humanity of other (as well as being a great distraction and a reminder of how blessed my life really is)
Sunrise: You are paralyzing you. YOU. NC alone does NOT equal sanity. Why did you think you could handle what NO ONE here on the board could? Why would you WANT to handle it knowing the devastation it would cause YOUR H.
I don't want to learn about what you THINK you learned about HIM.
I WANT to learn what YOU learned about YOU.
Not only that you can't handle it.
YOU were trying to re-engage the affair just as much as him. YOU KNEW YOU COULDN'T HANDLE IT BUT YOU DID IT ANYWAY?
what were you after Sunrise. Seriously, you can take the poor me, I must be crazy, I am such a bad person, self-pity route, or you can dust yourself off, STOP THE DRAMA and find the courage to get to the bottom of your need to self-harm.
YOU are not a victim. YOU know better than this sunrise.
And please know that I am not yelling at you ... I am not ranting or finger waving. We have watched you in pain for so long at your own hands, and we want you to want the madness to stop as much for yourself as we do. And then we want to see the actions that show us that.
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Sunrise, you need a ((HUG))!
Nobody is going to kick you off this board.
Oh Sunrise-
Of course you won't be kicked off this board, and NS gave you some wonderful encouraging love.
Thank you NS.
ok, trying to be still and ASK, really ASK, myself what it is that I get from this?
I don't want to learn about what you THINK you learned about HIM.
I WANT to learn what YOU learned about YOU.
Not only that you can't handle it.
YOU were trying to re-engage the affair just as much as him. YOU KNEW YOU COULDN'T HANDLE IT BUT YOU DID IT ANYWAY?
what were you after Sunrise. Seriously, you can take the poor me, I must be crazy, I am such a bad person, self-pity route, or you can dust yourself off, STOP THE DRAMA and find the courage to get to the bottom of your need to self-harm.
YOU are not a victim. YOU know better than this sunrise.
And please know that I am not yelling at you ... I am not ranting or finger waving. We have watched you in pain for so long at your own hands, and we want you to want the madness to stop as much for yourself as we do. And then we want to see the actions that show us that.
So - what's going to be different THIS time?
Hugs,
TU.
What did your actions say?
Sunrise,
I am new to this board and I understand how you feel.
(((Sunrise)))
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