I made a big mistake today...

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-13-2010
I made a big mistake today...
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Fri, 03-25-2011 - 2:55pm

DAMMIT!

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iVillage Member
Registered: 10-20-2009
Fri, 03-25-2011 - 3:45pm

Sunrise, you need a ((HUG))!

Nobody is going to kick you off this board.

BE the change that you want to see in the world! Life loves me and I love life! <3
iVillage Member
Registered: 07-21-2009
Fri, 03-25-2011 - 4:08pm

Oh Sunrise-

Of course you won't be kicked off this board, and NS gave you some wonderful encouraging love.

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-13-2010
Fri, 03-25-2011 - 5:28pm

Thank you NS.

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-13-2010
Fri, 03-25-2011 - 5:38pm

ok, trying to be still and ASK, really ASK, myself what it is that I get from this?

iVillage Member
Registered: 01-24-2011
Fri, 03-25-2011 - 6:08pm
Hi sunrise, is there anyone on your life who you could do something for today? Bake a cake? Take a child to the park? Send a card? Help a friend to tackle some chores in her home or garden? Visit someone who is unwell? When I felt at my lowest, it was those small acts of service that helped to restore my belief in myself and my belief in the humanity of other (as well as being a great distraction and a reminder of how blessed my life really is)
iVillage Member
Registered: 09-28-2010
Fri, 03-25-2011 - 7:07pm
Sunrise: You are paralyzing you. YOU. NC alone does NOT equal sanity. Why did you think you could handle what NO ONE here on the board could? Why would you WANT to handle it knowing the devastation it would cause YOUR H.

I don't want to learn about what you THINK you learned about HIM.

I WANT to learn what YOU learned about YOU.

Not only that you can't handle it.

YOU were trying to re-engage the affair just as much as him. YOU KNEW YOU COULDN'T HANDLE IT BUT YOU DID IT ANYWAY?

what were you after Sunrise. Seriously, you can take the poor me, I must be crazy, I am such a bad person, self-pity route, or you can dust yourself off, STOP THE DRAMA and find the courage to get to the bottom of your need to self-harm.

YOU are not a victim. YOU know better than this sunrise.

And please know that I am not yelling at you ... I am not ranting or finger waving. We have watched you in pain for so long at your own hands, and we want you to want the madness to stop as much for yourself as we do. And then we want to see the actions that show us that.

So - what's going to be different THIS time?

Hugs,

TU.
iVillage Member
Registered: 09-28-2010
Fri, 03-25-2011 - 7:08pm
REMEMBER YOUR actions also speak louder than words sunrise.

What did your actions say?
iVillage Member
Registered: 03-24-2011
Fri, 03-25-2011 - 9:43pm

Sunrise,

I am new to this board and I understand how you feel.

iVillage Member
Registered: 11-22-2009
Sat, 03-26-2011 - 10:11am

(((Sunrise)))

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Be where you are; otherwise you will miss your life. ~ Buddha
iVillage Member
Registered: 11-14-2008
Sat, 03-26-2011 - 11:26am

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