Depression and anxiety mis-diagnosis?

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Depression and anxiety mis-diagnosis?
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Mon, 08-07-2006 - 11:29pm
I was diagnosed in 10/2004 and on meds for it. At first it was just zoloft, but then they added Wellbutrin (for what appears/appeared to be ADD). But to be honest, they barely help. I have major outbursts, I can be laughing it up one minute, balling the next, screaming the next. I feel like I am on an endless rollar coaster ride. I have an app tomorrow with my doc but would like to go in there knowing what I am taking about. I am also in the active healing process from child sexual abuse. Deep down I feel that I have bipolar disorder, I have felt this for a long time but always feared the diagnosis and what it meant. I have often held symptoms back from my doctor and I know that is never a good thing to do but one of the symptoms I have is MAJOR fear that my kids will be taken away from me. I know its irrational because I am a good mother, but its still there, irrational or not. I feel that I need to get the proper treatment because it is affecting the way I deal with my children. I find myself taking more and more mommy "time outs" and sitting at the computer more often than not to keep my mind in one spot. I am usually doing more than one thing on the computer as well. I go through periods of time where I need 14 hours of sleep or more then times when (like now) I barely get 4 and I am ready to go all day without a nap. My husband an my relationship is suffering. He is dealing with PTSD from going to Iraq twice now on deployment and all I want to do is be supportive, but I can't be. We aren't even living together right now because of it. He stays in the barracks at night and comes here for an hour or two after work to visit with the kids. Its affecting the children, I have thought about divorce and in one minute want one and the next don't. He finally agreed to one and once that happened it was like a light switch and I didn't want one any more. I can be laughing and playing with my kids and pulling my hair out to keep from screaming uncontrollably the next. I hate doing this to my kids and they shouldn't have to even see mommy like that. Please if any one can help give me an idea of what I should talk to my doctor about it would be really appreciated. PM me or email me. Advice is needed and wanted. Thank you

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Tue, 08-08-2006 - 4:00am
Copy this letter and take it into your doc, when you see the Tdoc and Pdoc. They do need to know. Sometimes writing things down is easeier than talking, because you have more time to think about what must be said.
Good luck, my prayers go with you. Sunny
 
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Tue, 08-08-2006 - 7:16am

Thank you, I have printed out a bunch of information on Bipolar and then highlighted the areas that myself and those closest to me see in me. I also wrote out dates and time frames of when I feel that I may have been manic/depressive. More of the manic ones because I have seen this doctor for the depression before.

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Tue, 08-08-2006 - 8:03am
you JUST had a baby & youre putting all this pressure & expectations on yourself??????& basically you have twins with the difference in the ages.
add all the hormonal havoc going hand in hand with the original illness & even some(or alot of) postpartum depression that's magnified if you have a pre existing illness.AND exclusively breast feeding w/ 2 other children to care for.
i agree...it's time for someone to care for you.
give yourself a break.all you are accomplishing is beyond wonderful.i admire you...
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Tue, 08-08-2006 - 8:32am

Hello and Welcome to the board !!!


You have a lot on your plate right now....bp aside, you do just with the kids and breastfeeding !!

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Tue, 08-08-2006 - 12:29pm
I understand that about the meds and breastfeeding. There was a bit of a thing with the Wellbutrin but the benifits outweighed the risks. I am seeing some one today, I am pretty sure its just the social worker/counseler, there is a doctor doctor there, not really sure his title because he is a military doctor so I just call him Capt Morgan (yes pretty funny), but he is there, I just couldn't get in to see him this time. I am going in there armed with information. I feel that will be helpful. I am going to see about getting a referal to some one off base about the BP and also to help with healing from the sexual abuse. I may have to fight for it, but then again I may not have to, one never knows with the military. Most other health problems are fixed with motrin, but they take mental health pretty seriously. Its just hard telling what is reality and what is a fabrication because of everything else. Thank you for the welcome and the help and support.

Cari, Wife to Keegan


Mommy to Raelyn 4, Jeffrey 1 and


Matthew 3 months and counting.


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Tue, 08-08-2006 - 11:27pm
What is a Pdoc and Tdoc? TIA

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Matthew 3 months and counting.


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Wed, 08-09-2006 - 1:04am
I know what you mean, I would not talk to a group either. Perhaps you can catch a clinic in the town where you live?? In San Francisco they have these clinics where a person can get p doc and a therapist to talk to, regularly. I don't know if this helps, and also you always have us here. P.S. you need your meds. checked and rechecked against how
you react to them. Press further for help.
 
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Wed, 08-09-2006 - 7:41am
I am looking into going some where else. There are certain rules I need to adhere to because of my insurance (tricare prime, husband is Army). My husband and I are going off base for counseling and I am going to see if they can also see me on an individual basis. Thank you for all the support it has been great.

Cari, Wife to Keegan


Mommy to Raelyn 4, Jeffrey 1 and


Matthew 3 months and counting.


Proud owner of an e-store, please come visit me at Cari's Treasure Chest, I also do live auctions and buy it now items on Ebay and Amazon.





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Wed, 08-09-2006 - 8:45am

pdoc is psychiatrist
tdoc is therapist or counselor

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Wed, 08-09-2006 - 8:54am
Ok, so yeah I go to both. I got to a PDOC for meds and stuff, that is who I am seeing in two weeks to get a "med evaluation" to see if I am bipolar because the lady yesterday didn't want to commit to anything. She actually compaired me to another one of her patients (which I plan on going to the PDOC about) and said that because I don't excessivly spend when I don't have money (I have no way to, no one takes our checks and when we are overdrawn our debit card doesn't work, we cannot get credit cards because we have bad credit and we just filed for bankruptcy in March) then I am not bipolar. She said that her other patient has a room full of mary kay products up to the cieling and that if I was bipolar I would. No I may not have a room full of stuff, but I do have a truck that was purchased a week before we filed for bankruptcy!!

Cari, Wife to Keegan


Mommy to Raelyn 4, Jeffrey 1 and


Matthew 3 months and counting.


Proud owner of an e-store, please come visit me at Cari's Treasure Chest, I also do live auctions and buy it now items on Ebay and Amazon.





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