Depression and anxiety mis-diagnosis?

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Registered: 09-29-2004
Depression and anxiety mis-diagnosis?
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Mon, 08-07-2006 - 11:29pm
I was diagnosed in 10/2004 and on meds for it. At first it was just zoloft, but then they added Wellbutrin (for what appears/appeared to be ADD). But to be honest, they barely help. I have major outbursts, I can be laughing it up one minute, balling the next, screaming the next. I feel like I am on an endless rollar coaster ride. I have an app tomorrow with my doc but would like to go in there knowing what I am taking about. I am also in the active healing process from child sexual abuse. Deep down I feel that I have bipolar disorder, I have felt this for a long time but always feared the diagnosis and what it meant. I have often held symptoms back from my doctor and I know that is never a good thing to do but one of the symptoms I have is MAJOR fear that my kids will be taken away from me. I know its irrational because I am a good mother, but its still there, irrational or not. I feel that I need to get the proper treatment because it is affecting the way I deal with my children. I find myself taking more and more mommy "time outs" and sitting at the computer more often than not to keep my mind in one spot. I am usually doing more than one thing on the computer as well. I go through periods of time where I need 14 hours of sleep or more then times when (like now) I barely get 4 and I am ready to go all day without a nap. My husband an my relationship is suffering. He is dealing with PTSD from going to Iraq twice now on deployment and all I want to do is be supportive, but I can't be. We aren't even living together right now because of it. He stays in the barracks at night and comes here for an hour or two after work to visit with the kids. Its affecting the children, I have thought about divorce and in one minute want one and the next don't. He finally agreed to one and once that happened it was like a light switch and I didn't want one any more. I can be laughing and playing with my kids and pulling my hair out to keep from screaming uncontrollably the next. I hate doing this to my kids and they shouldn't have to even see mommy like that. Please if any one can help give me an idea of what I should talk to my doctor about it would be really appreciated. PM me or email me. Advice is needed and wanted. Thank you

Cari, Wife to Keegan


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Registered: 04-11-2006
Wed, 08-09-2006 - 1:40pm
Keegan is beautiful. Really, really beautiful. My Mother was bi polar, not boarder line like me, but out and out bipolar and suffered severe depression. There was no insurance or P and T docs out in the boonies for her, and she wouldn't have gone anyway. But my Grandma on my Dads side in all of her wisdom, used to tell Mom when the feelings and fears and hurt and screaming got really bad. Stop and go clean the floor, On your hands and knees. Its sounds so silly, but the work was so hard, that she could put off her yelling or crying. She would put on her radio and send us kids out to play and she would sing to the top of her lungs and clean the floor then she finish and start onthe rest of the kitchen. You could eat off of our floors. And she always had time to reason out and calm down and realize, that she was ruling thru emotions. She later develovped horrible arthritis in the knees. But she still refused to go see a doc even then. SO do see a doctor, and take your meds, but, exercise hard. Really hard when the moods are in a rampage in your head. ANd meditate. I meditate anywhere from 30 minutes to hours in a day,, depending how bad I feel. And Some ones personal religion always helps also immensely. I am Buddhist, but if I were Christian or Methodist or Muslim or Jewish, or etc. I would still say, religion and prayer will help you over the humps. Good luck and lots of love from Sunny to you.
 

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