Im Ready to LET GO
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Im Ready to LET GO
| Mon, 03-28-2011 - 4:09pm |
Hi Everyone,
It's been a while since I've actually started a discussion, but I have been reading and supporting others.
Im 5.5 mos NC - am Single - I was in an abusive affair, when I came to EAS - I was committed to no longer being a mistress - but held the HOPE in the back of my head and heart that he'd fulfill the promises he made to me about "coming for me" as soon as the timing was right. I was still feeling that what we had was "love" or at least what I felt was Love.
Until January of this year (2mos) ago, the reality fully hit me that he WASNT coming for me and that ALL he'd promised and told me were nothing but lies and manipulation, going as far as him involving my children. (adults)

((Michelle))
I am so happy to read this, honey. I learned that by holding onto the anger, I was giving away my power, and this is something we can't afford to throw away in a situation like this. Our power is like emotional fuel that gets us from point A to point B, so on and so forth. We cannot possibly move fwd until we recognize what a gift it is.
Letting go can be so difficult because our hands, cut and bleeding from holding on so tight to the jaged edges of our A, fear the pain that will follow once we open them up to the truth. We all know how excrutiating it is to feel air on wounds. BUT, this is the only way they will ever be able to heal. Then we have to cleanse them, douse them with antibacterial cream, and then bandage them up so the healing can begin.
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I hope this means for yourself and him. It's a 2-way street and just forgiving yourself leaves 1/2 of the anger/hurt still out there on the road, KWIM?
So happy - I've missed you!
Michelle
This is a great post! You have come so far- you should be very very proud
Iggyxxx
Iddy,
Thanks for your encouragement. I so agree! I too realized that I was keeping myself STUCK by being so angry, because I truly was giving away my power.
In my anger and righteous indignation, finger pointing and blame - Its almost as if I was expecting (with that powerlessness) that he was going to step up and give it back to me so I could move on.
Thanks Lolly!!!!
Yes, That's true, isn't it?
NOTHING about the affair mattered in terms of real life, in fact - it and my own holding on to anything to do with it, has been NOTHING but a hindrance, nuisance and BLOCK from my achieving all the greatness I deserve.
Hugs to you,
M
Thanks Igg!!!! :)
It's the next step for me. It feels so right.
Plus, ANGER is exhausting. Ive been in such pain, acheyness, & my professional life has suffered.
Love to you,
M
Michelle, I love your
M~
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Exactly. Easier said than done but this is when my power kicked into full gear.