Forgiveness

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Registered: 04-05-2010
Forgiveness
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Mon, 03-28-2011 - 8:44pm

I went to my 2nd session of counselling/acupuncture/healing...etc tonight. What an amazing woman I am seeing!!! Last week I opened up to her immediatey (quite a tap to turn on since only one person has shared this secret for 8 years with me and 1 other in the past year) I did A LOT of crying and we talked a great deal beyond the time we were supposed to.

She said in order to begin this healing I must forgive myself... simple words, but how??? She said it is a choice and until I make the choice to forgive I will not be able to start the road to healing. Once we forgive, we are on our way.... I never was able to forgive myself last year, I am still having a hard time forgiving now, but I know I must and I know that will be the only way I can begin this journey.

Happiness is a CHOICE. You must choose to be happy and not let all the things that occur in your life effect this CHOICE. We are often programmed to let the "bad" things in our life skew our outlook, but with hard work and wellness and forgiveness, we can learn to make this CHOICE to become happy with what we have and what we should be thankful for.

Tonight, I left there feeling a sense of purpose... a positive view on a lot of things in my life. I have a lot of changes to make within myself and I am ready to begin! I am ready to forgive and ready to heal. I made bad choices and selfish mistakes, but I am ready to take my life back!

Just wanted to share this with all of you..thanks again for your continues support last year and as well as my return. To all the newbies, stay strong, read a lot and don't be afraid to ask for help. It is a long painful road but I know it will be worth it for all of us and those who love us.

Start by earning to forgive yourself...and move on from there. I am now about 5 weeks NC.

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Registered: 10-14-2010
Mon, 03-28-2011 - 10:58pm

Tonight, I left there feeling a sense of purpose... a positive view on a lot of things in my life. I have a lot of changes to make within myself and I am ready to begin! I am ready to forgive and ready to heal. I made bad choices and selfish mistakes, but I am ready to take my life back!

Your post SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO resonates with me.

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
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Registered: 04-05-2010
Tue, 03-29-2011 - 11:19am

Thanks for the post Newlife... nice to have a response from someone about

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Registered: 01-24-2011
Tue, 03-29-2011 - 5:30pm
Hi Healing, It's wonderful to hear how focused and committed you are on this second ending. You have every reason to celebrate those positive steps you are making :) As someone with more failed endings than I care to count, I recognise that feeling of finally knowing that THIS IS IT and getting on with doing everything necessary to heal. I look forward to hearing more about the insights you are gaining in therapy - there is still so much for all of us to learn.

Sunshine and smiles

Kat
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Registered: 04-05-2010
Tue, 03-29-2011 - 6:25pm

Thanks Kat... I will definitely keep posting the progress... I am not naive enough to think it won't be a long process. I have spent many years living a lie. I have many years of degrading behaviour to get over and heal from. It will take a long time, but I am determined to give it my best.

Thank you again

Healing

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Registered: 10-20-2009
Wed, 03-30-2011 - 11:07am

Healing, you have punched the first ticket towards your healing and

BE the change that you want to see in the world! Life loves me and I love life! <3