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| Tue, 03-29-2011 - 11:37am |
It seems like today's just one of those days. The weather's dreary outside, skies grey, humidity making my hair look like a troll doll..and then there's this..
Forgiveness has been a recent topic that I've been looking into because in order to move forward in my healing, this needs to occur. But I'm having trouble forgiving myself. Because I seriously don’t think I have. My guilt and sin and shame rear their ugly faces from time to time and I’m brought down to the ground with the weight of what I’ve done. And then there’s forgiving him. I need to do this first in order to move forward with my healing. But how? Where do I even start? I feel stuck. Physically and emotionally stuck.
I just feel blah'ish today. But on the flip side, its a new day, another opportunity to take a step in the right direction :)

Jesus taught us eternal truth when He taught us to pray: “Forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors. … For, if ye forgive men their trespasses your heavenly Father will also forgive you; but if ye forgive not … neither will your Father forgive your trespasses”
Therefore, extending forgiveness is a precondition to receiving forgiveness.
For our own good, we need the moral courage to forgive and to ask for forgiveness. Never is the soul nobler and more courageous than when we forgive. This includes forgiving ourselves.
My dear young friends, when the captain of a long-range jet passes the point of safe return, and the headwinds are too strong or the cruising altitudes too low, he might be forced to divert to an airport other than his planned destination. This is not so in our journey through life back to our heavenly home. Wherever you find yourselves on this journey through life, whatever trials you may face, there is always a point of safe return; there is always hope. You are the captain of your life, and God has prepared a plan to bring you safely back to Him, to your divine destination.
The gift of the Atonement of Jesus Christ provides us at all times and at all places with the blessings of repentance and forgiveness. Because of this gift, the opportunity to make a safe return from the disastrous course of sin is available to all of us.
Thank you so very much Lolly for this beautiful reminder. I was once told in T that once I ask God to forgive me for what I've done, then I should forgive myself as well, because not forgiving myself and continually beating myself up was in sense saying that I was better than God, since he had already forgiven me, yet I myself was holding back.
These flashbacks of what I've done come at the most random of times and before I know it, the tears are streaming down my face. I just need to forgive myself and cross this hurdle that's in front of me.
Great response, Lolly.
((Hugs))
I'm going to look into that book because I need to know the difference as everything is mushing together right now and things don't make sense in my mind.
Thank you again Lolly!
Take care :)
The author is Stephen E. Robinson - :)
Here's the excerpt:
Believing ChristWhen my son Michael was six or seven, he did something I thought was wrong. He is my only son, and I want him to be better than his dad was. So when he slipped up, I sent him to his room with the instructions, “Don’t you dare come out until I come and get you!”
And then I forgot. Some hours later, as I was watching television, I heard his door open and tentative footsteps coming down the hall. I slapped my forehead and ran to meet him. There he was with swollen eyes and tears on his cheeks. He looked up at me—not quite sure he should have come out—and said, “Dad, can’t we ever be friends again?” I melted and pulled him to me. He’s my boy, and I love him.
We all do things that disappoint our Father in Heaven, that separate us from his presence, his Spirit. There are times when we get sent to our rooms, spiritually though not physically. When that happens, we sometimes lift up our eyes and say, “O Father, can’t we ever be friends again?” The answer, found in all the scriptures, is a resounding “Yes—through the atonement of Christ.” I particularly like the way it is put in Isaiah 1:18: “Come now, and let us reason together, saith the Lord: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow.”
To have faith in Jesus Christ is not merely to believe that he is who he says he is. It is not merely to believe in Christ; we must also believe Christ. Both as a bishop and as a teacher, I have heard several variations on a theme of doubt. Some have said, “Bishop, I’ve sinned too horribly. I’ll be active in the Church, and I hope for some reward. But I couldn’t ever hope to be exalted after what I’ve done.” Others have said, “I’m weak and imperfect.
This is beautiful and truly a God-send Lolly. I love it! And like his wife Janet, I too, need to be saved from myself. I was actually thinking about that this past wkend. Thank you, thank you so much Lolly! I am definitely going to go out and get myself this book. This excerpt tugged at my heart. Now its my turn to act on it :) Thank you so much again!
This was a God-send for me as well... thank you, Lolly!