S.I.C.K. of this!!
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| Fri, 08-18-2006 - 8:53pm |
Okay so lamictal, depakote, lithium, antipsychotics all didn't work. Now I'm starting tegretol tonight. My mood is back like CRAZY. I tried to swim last night and thought ther was sand on the ground like I was in the ocean. I was laughing ridiculously the entire time and couldn't manage. I've been so disgusted with my fat from these drugs and I made up this dance "La fatcuracha" which involved jiggling my now notflatatall belly. Today I have been all over the place. Saw pdoc this morning. Time for tegretol! I don't even have hope anymore. He said trilipetal was basically the same. I begged for topomax because of the weight loss or at least neutrality (is that a word?) of it but he said "there is not enough literature... it's not strong enough... blah blah BLAH"
I have defered one semester from school. Let's hope 4 months is enough to kick this in the butt.
Oh. and I was reading some stuff about pediatric bipolar, just for fun. Sometimes it seems like I sound more pediatric bipolar than adult bipolar. Or a mix. Is that possible? Probably not. I am afterall an adult. Hah. even though I live at home. Don't have a job, or a life, or go to school.
Have any of you ever been to crazymeds.com? The bipolar section is titled "I'm so happy I could kill myself!"
Hahhah I just think that's so funny. I think morbid things are funny. But I'm pretty sure that's just my personality. Maybe that's why I have no friends. Or maybe it's because of my fat. OR maybe because I'm bipolar.
I'll shut up now.
semi-insane meg

Meg,
I can relate to that crazy dance when your meds aren't working, but hang in there it DOES get better!