bipolar or not? help?

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Registered: 08-24-2006
bipolar or not? help?
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Thu, 08-24-2006 - 9:47pm
I mentioned possibly being bipolar to my psychiatrist years ago and he was just kinda like, "alright then, let's start you on some Lithium". He asked why I felt that way, didn't say what he thought one way or the other and then wrote me a prescription. I was on it for a few years and didn't see much change. I still had the same epsisodes that I was having to begin with (which were mainly just really violent uncontrollable fits of anger where I'd harm myself and anyone around me and was convinced no one loved me and was near suicidal). During this entire time, I was in a really bad relationship that was mentally and physically abusive. My ex was always telling me how crazy I was and that everything was my fault, which is why I was seeing a psychiatrist in the first place. After nearly 8 years I ended up getting out of that relationship and I slowly weaned myself off of the Lithium. I currently only take 60mg of Prozac a day and for the most part, I'm fine. I have a few "episodes" (maybe 1 or 2 a week) where I get obsessed with a particular idea. I'll give you an example: I have a rabbit who has been extremely troublesome for me since I got her and I've been trying to get rid of her. I recently fell in love with a new rabbit at the pet store but I'd have to get rid of the evil one first. So, I decided that I had to get rid of her THAT day. I started calling pet stores and animal shelters. I was all hyped up as if I were on speed. After about an hour of this, it wasn't working out and I was getting really angry about it. I was yelling and screaming at everyone and saying they didn't love me because they weren't helping me get rid of my rabbit and that I was going to have to just let her go outside and probably die. My fiance (the most amazing person in the world with superhuman patience) finally calmed me down and I got over it. That day I was convinced that I absolutely had to get rid of my rabbit that day. And now here I am, still with the rabbit, and I'm fine. I just get really excited about something and then get extremely depressed when it doesn't work out. So now my question to you all is...what does this sound like? Do I even sound like I'm bipolar? It's been almost 2 years since I've been to a psychiatrist and I'm actually currently trying to find a new primary care physician but I do plan to find someone to talk to. Any advice would be helpful. Thanks!
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Registered: 05-02-2006
Thu, 08-24-2006 - 10:31pm

Hi Violet and welcome to our board. While I can't say you are or aren't bipolar, I can say your symptoms sound bipolar*ish*.

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Registered: 04-06-2005
Fri, 08-25-2006 - 10:59am

Hi and Welcome !!!


I don't have much more to add then Traci did.

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