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i can always feel it...
| Wed, 08-30-2006 - 12:20am |
my foot starts shaking uncontrollably and my face lights up and i can just feel it in the inside. in my stomach, it's laughing at me. I'm laughing. Life just got better, not really but my head THINKS it did.
My head is so wrong wrong wrong.
pdoc keeps increasing tegretol. up to 800 mg.
whats next?
hahaha theres no way of getting out of this.
it's a maze. or maybe i'm waldo and stuck in wheres waldo. and im invisible. or did i mean invincible? no one will ever find me. THEN IM ON TOP OF THE WORLD!
Like i said, my head. it's confused. but my foot keeps shaking. come on, laugh with me. because it's kinda funny, isn't it?

Hey Meg,
Good question to ponder...something else for me to occupy my mind with this morning...I don't think bp is ever funny (being that it is a very serious illness) but, my mind's eye often views my episodes or situations I'm in while in an episode as funny- even though others definitely do not!
Just curious...why did pdoc increase the meds? It sounded like the dose you were on last week (I think it was) was finally helping you out and you were feeling a lot better. Were you starting to not feel well again? I know you said this med was working, I hope that it continues to give you relief and some stability. I'll keep my fingers crossed that this is just temporary until your body adjusts to the increase...try to be patient and stay strong!
Peg
hey waldo...I said this exact same sort of thing too very very recently...i'm so laughing with you...i'm really pretty damn manic 2...my topa goes to 200 mgs tomorrow...will it help??? let's see, k?
i was on 1800 of trileptal...so you gotta ways to go...
keep laughing...my legs won't stop moving, omg...
if you stop laughing, you start crying...
i'm irritable, too, so i'm trying to not think...but will my brain let me do that? nope...ugh.
hahahahahahaha
k.
Peg! Unfortunately I got manic on that last dose sooo up it went and up it keeps going and keliiii dont tell me 1800 mg! i'll be playing this game forever.
dont stop laughing dont stop laughing. you are SO right if you stop... its all downhill...
i actually slept some. oh the wonders of tegretol. two more hours till i take another 400. time to enjoy it!!
mind games. i always liked them when i was little. like those little box on top of the box and it meant something. you know, the pictures? that should have been some sign. WHYyyy didnt i see it!!
i need to go exercise while im in this mood. i have depaweight to lose!! you all with your topamax... lucky lucky ducks.