Last appt with current pdoc

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Last appt with current pdoc
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Tue, 09-05-2006 - 10:51am

Okay, so I went to see my now former pdoc this morning. I am really going to miss her. I decided to see the 'new' lady pdoc, instead of the man I'd seen before. I go to her on 10/2.

So, my pdoc and I went through EVERYTHING again...and realized that I'm having a lot of trouble with intrusive negative thoughts. I am, and I knew it, but didn't really connect it to anything other than "I AM NUTS". Since my meds are all okay as they are, we added back in Risperdal. I've taken it with great results before. The newer a/p's I cannot tolerate, Abilify and Geodon.

She said I know SO much about BP and my illness, that it won't take long for me to get the other pdoc up to speed. She said she has literally never had a BP patient with as severe a case as mine, continue to work and function as normally as I do. I kinda laughed at this point. She said, NO! That she wants me to KNOW without a doubt how strong and amazing I am. I said, well, sometimes I know.

She said that my depressives have become the main "problem" with my BP. But that I knew how to "get through them" and that was the BIGGEST STEP in learning to live well with BP. I told her it was hard. She said she wished I didn't have to live my life like this. But I told her its not always all bad. I can deal. Somehow I can deal.

I will miss her very very much.

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Registered: 04-27-2006
Tue, 09-05-2006 - 11:26am

Keli, you are strong. I wish I could be more like you. I wish I was as high functioning as you. But I am not and it has ruined my life...I hate BP


I am sure you will do well with your new pdoc. Hang in there.


love you


Tina




     ~ Tina ~