you think YOU'RE nuts....
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you think YOU'RE nuts....
| Tue, 09-05-2006 - 12:09pm |
i simply CANNOT control myself.
yesterday my middle dd's friend was across the street playing w/ some kids.
one of the kids said my dd wasn't allowed to play & her friend had to choose.
as soon as i heard i couldn't wait.
i told the child he was a stupid little turd & his father might think he owned the block but in truth their family did NOT & had no claim over who played where.i saw his father come out looking for me & gave an obnoxious little wave.
all the adults were humiliated for me.but my kids weren't the least bit embarrassed & i figure that's all that counts.
i'm feeling sorry for myself.i have too many strikes against me.especially lately.i'm putting off calling a new pdoc & i wish i could escape.alot of truths have come up.
i hate this.
i'm going to be the old lady who screams at kids.
yesterday my middle dd's friend was across the street playing w/ some kids.
one of the kids said my dd wasn't allowed to play & her friend had to choose.
as soon as i heard i couldn't wait.
i told the child he was a stupid little turd & his father might think he owned the block but in truth their family did NOT & had no claim over who played where.i saw his father come out looking for me & gave an obnoxious little wave.
all the adults were humiliated for me.but my kids weren't the least bit embarrassed & i figure that's all that counts.
i'm feeling sorry for myself.i have too many strikes against me.especially lately.i'm putting off calling a new pdoc & i wish i could escape.alot of truths have come up.
i hate this.
i'm going to be the old lady who screams at kids.

You have to get yourself under control here, hon! Seriously!!! You are NOT nuts. You're BP. You have to call a pdoc and get meds...that is your FIRST PRIORITY!!! Once you do that, all this other stuff will calm down again, I promise.
GET ON THE PHONE AND CALL SOME PDOCS!!!
You won't be the old lady screaming at kids, we won't let you.
Let us know how we can help, okay?
Love and Hugs,
Keli
Suziq - sorry to say I was laughing histerically at your post. Mostly because I can relate. I too have been the "screaming lady" on my block. Haven't called any kids turds yets (LOL) but I've been pretty darn close, and bitten my tongue so hard that I'm pretty sure there's a perminent mark. Are you not on any meds right now? I am newly dx'd and am just on my 3rd week of Lamictal and am finally starting to see a little bit of a change in my mood. Still feel hypo-manic, but the irritability is lessening, and that is a huge thing for me, especially around children. It is important like Keli said to get that under control. You don't want to be that person, and you're not that person. I know I'm not yet because of an imbalance that we have it causes us to act like something we never thought we could possibly be. I completely understand where you're coming from but it is important that you not let it run your life. Take control and do something to help yourself. We're here for you!!!
J
even i laughed.
i am on meds but lost my pdoc(you should hear what i called HIM)
i'm dragging my feet bout calling a new one.or if a new one will even take me..going thru the "i hate my meds" kick.
you know...thinking i'm just weird & not really bipolar.
HA!
i loved lamictal but got the dreaded rash(most likely cause i gave the wrong dosage in the ER(oops,who was thinking?)