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xAP's birthday
| Sat, 04-02-2011 - 9:18am |
It's the stroke of midnight here, which means xAP is another year older. First time in seven years I won't be sending a special "five favourite things about you" birthday message. I guess he'll be spending the day with his W and kids, right where he should be.
I baked a cake tonight, for friends, and then sat on my kitchen floor and cried for what xAP and I once thought we had. Thankfully I know that I only have to face the rawness of these anniversary events once. Next year, each of these days will simply be a chance to celebrate a year of being free.
So, wherever you are xAP, happy birthday. I hope you "find" the happiness that's already all around you.
Kat.
I baked a cake tonight, for friends, and then sat on my kitchen floor and cried for what xAP and I once thought we had. Thankfully I know that I only have to face the rawness of these anniversary events once. Next year, each of these days will simply be a chance to celebrate a year of being free.
So, wherever you are xAP, happy birthday. I hope you "find" the happiness that's already all around you.
Kat.

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Kat,
Oh, brother. I feel for you. I remember that first B-day anni out and it was tough. Ironically, my Xmm has a BIG one next week. Damn those Aries men. I've always migrated toward them. Arrgg!!
Japru - you did great not contacting her on her birthday, but with yours coming up why don't you just block her email address so that you don't have to torture yourself with the will she/won't she game?? Is there something I'm missing?
Read as much as you can in our healing library, and when you're ready to go NC and start healing, we would love to hear your story and offer you our support :)
Wishing you strength and serenity
Kat
kat
glad to hear u are better!
my ex POOPs b-day was the last time i ever saw him (as his OW) so I celebrated my one year NC anniversary and his Bday all on one day..........it was kind of like experiencing a mix of heaven and hell if you can understand that
the following day after the one year anniversary i felt a complte release from all the pain of the first year
it was really marked and sudden
so don't despair casue feelings pass!
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