I will do this.

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I will do this.
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Sat, 04-02-2011 - 11:09pm

Hello everyone,

After a chaotic emotional day that was yesterday, thanks to God I was able to get into a T session this morning and my gosh did it help! I was reminded that I'm not a bad person, I just made a bad mistake, but I'm taking the steps to get my life back. And I was reminded that I need to stop beating myself up and I need to forgive myself first, and then xap. This is now my mission, because I want to move forward. I need to move forward. I will do this.

Enough of taking one step at a time, yet looking back (reading emails from xap or his wife). Now its time to put into practice what I've learned. Delete. Focus on myself and my family and not anyone else's. Its none of my business. This is about me. This is about realizing that only God and myself can validate me. No one else. I am worth so much more than what I allowed myself to be. This is about living again. Fully living and experiencing life and making the most of what I've been blessed with. This is about appreciating any and everything in my life. From that first breath in the morning, to that last hug and kiss I give my husband and children each night before bed. This is about me loving myself. My family. My husband and God.

I feel good today and now have much work to do, but there is a light at the end of this pathway I'm on. I know its there. And I will reach it.

Hugs,

WU

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Registered: 01-24-2011
Sun, 04-03-2011 - 3:09am
Fully living from the first breath to the last kiss. What a wonderful way to live. :)
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Sun, 04-03-2011 - 7:59am

WU,

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Yes you will, no doubt in my mind. Love of God and family will keep you on the right path. Beautiful post, WU, and forgiveness will come. You'll see.

((Hugs))

Be where you are; otherwise you will miss your life. ~ Buddha
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Registered: 09-28-2010
Sun, 04-03-2011 - 11:00pm
YOU CAN DO THIS!

we are right here cheering you on and believing in you even when you don't!

TU.
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Registered: 04-02-2011
Mon, 04-04-2011 - 5:10am
You WILL reach that light at the end of the pathway WU. Have inner strength and you will find that peace.

Wonderful post
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Registered: 01-07-2011
Mon, 04-04-2011 - 9:24am

Exactly Katniss. And this is the only way I want to live from here on out.. :)

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Registered: 01-07-2011
Mon, 04-04-2011 - 9:28am

Thank you very much Iddy for your response and your encouragement. I greatly appreciate it! I know that with God, anything's possible, and with my family by my side, I know I can and will make it. Thank you all so very much again for all of the continued support and encouragement..today's another day..another step in the right direction :)

Take care and ((Hugs)),

WU

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Registered: 01-07-2011
Mon, 04-04-2011 - 9:31am

Thank you so very much Transcended.us for your encouragement and support. It feels comforting to know that we have people who've been there and know what this journey's all about..and they're right there with us, helping us along the way...when times get difficult and we feel ourselves stumbling..its good to know that someone's there to reach out and help us along.

Thank you, thank you so very much!

Take care and big hugs,

WU

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Mon, 04-04-2011 - 9:33am

Thank you very much Newmanuk. I really appreciate your response and we will all reach that light at the end of this pathway. We all have it in us to make it through..

Take care and here's to another day..another step in the right direction.