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| Mon, 04-04-2011 - 4:41am |
Checking in--realized I posted in the.wrong spot....
I know it's been many moons since I last posted. While I'm still not sure that I'm tough enough for the tough love that is given here I can tell you for sure I wasn't 4 months ago on a particularly crappy day. I was so hurt by and hurting in general
I know it's been many moons since I last posted. While I'm still not sure that I'm tough enough for the tough love that is given here I can tell you for sure I wasn't 4 months ago on a particularly crappy day. I was so hurt by and hurting in general

Hellooooo Chechi!!!
How lovely to see you here!!! Yes we did start our journeys around the same time. You have been so much better than me though. i stumbled and bumbled but had NC over 2 mths, heard from him, didnt respond, but spiralled into cyber styalking him for a few days till I found him on a dating site. Talk about gutted.
I reset my clock on Feb 14 and going strong. I still have such strong 'missing the high' moments though that it is still hard for me to resist texting etc. I havent- but some days its all I can do to not do it! But other days (like today) I rarely thought about him at all.
Like you, its very clear to me that my addiction was to the buzz of the A. When I truly sit down and analyse his 'good points vs bad points', I can see just how much I had 'imagined'. He was narcissistic, workaholic, cold, emotionally immature, onto his second marriage (which
Good to see you back.
Your mention of six months rang my bell and I just had to post.
I made it within a few hours of six months of NC. I had a app on my phone, that kept track of it and used it and felt proud, and patted myself on the back all the time about it. I thought I was at indifference. I was WRONG!
Then the unexpected happened. I accidentally answered the phone at home. It was her. I wasn't prepared. I was caught off guard. I was off again.
I push, harp, and constantly tell everyone. BE PREPARED!!! Never let your defenses down.
If you look at it logically, when our xAP is looking for an easy mark, who else would they turn to?
Glad to see you are still NC and doing well.
Be prepared.
RBM
We only miss what could have been. I know I don't miss what it really was.
welcome back chechi!
i hope you'll even stay for awhile