reverse of xAP's birthday
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reverse of xAP's birthday
| Tue, 04-05-2011 - 2:12pm |
A few weeks go, I resisted the strong urge to contact xAP on her birthday. It was very difficult but I felt it was one more step towards closure and felt better. The problem now is that my birthday is coming up and I was fretting about it - wondering if I'd feel bad if she ignored it (as I did hers) or whether I'd be relieved at not hearing from her again or some mixture.
Thanks to responses I got in Kat's xAP's birthday thread, I've nipped it in the bud by blocking her. Just taking a positive step and exercising control has helped me move another step towards recovery.
So thanks to those who wrote about my dilemma in that thread.

Good job!!
Hey well done Japru. Look at you taking back control over your recovery!
It is AN amazing feeling to take control of the situation - of your own well-being! PLEASE trust me when I say that NOT knowing one way or another IS SOO much better than waiting for a text that does/does not come!
and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
Friday is my Xmm's (boss's) B-Day. It's a big one for him and I don't have to work that day. :) Just got lucky this year, and besides, it may be a big one for him but it means nothing to me. He has a family to celebrate with, which he always went home to anyway on special occasions. The dratted fog we were all once in led us to believe we were actually more important than their own families. Hello?
Next year you will sail through this, I guarantee it. First year ending anniversaries are always the pits. :(
(Hugs))