to the point..... pos trigs
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to the point..... pos trigs
| Mon, 09-18-2006 - 1:03pm |
I am at the breaking point again have been dealing with the depression again and really thinking about bad thoughts. this is so confusing to me, all the ups and downs and in betweens. I am working on getting my children back into public school, I never get a minute alone but yet I am afraid to be alone. I want to die, but am afraid for my children I love them all yet again I am sick of them. how can a mother be sick of her children I know I am a horrible mother. have tried medicine for the depression and am on Cymbalta and it isnt doing any good so wat is the point of taking the stuff, other then it is helping me lose weight, still want to lose around 30 pounds then maybe I will like the way I look. sorry this post is going no where.
Mary

Mary...honey. I KNOW what you mean...you have to fight for every day, every minute...its not fair and i hate it so much too, but we have no other choice. I too am sick of my son...I love him with all my heart, but the older he gets the meaner he gets...but i would never leave him alone.
You CAN do this...if I can do it, you can do it...
What about Lexapro? Have you tried that a/d? Cymbalta made my cycles worse...
I'll check back in with you later!
Love you,
keli
I get sick of mine too. It's a dirty little secret even though we didn't stop being our own people just because we had them. When I saw that you home schooled, I thought "Really brave woman!" We can only do what we can.
Many hugs Mary, Kelli
Mary,
If it's any consolation--totally "normal" people feel that way about their kids sometimes too!
Mary