Extremely depressed!

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Registered: 04-27-2006
Extremely depressed!
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Mon, 09-18-2006 - 6:07pm

I wish this depression would pass soon. I can't take it much more. I need some mania...just a little. I have school and I need to get rid of this funk. College is a trigger for me, always has been and I hate it. I don't think my bp is going to allow me to get through school. I need to just face facts. I can't work and that is why I got on disability. So why even try to make it in college when I won't be able to work anyway. It's nice to dream but I need to face facts. Somehow I need to find contentment in the way my life is. I was doing so much better until I went back to school. College is a good thing,

     ~ Tina ~

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Tue, 09-19-2006 - 8:06am

Tina...

I feel the same way...but I woke up this morning with mania...and not good mania!!! Ugh.

I'm still depressed too, but mine cycles in and out so rapidly its exhausting.

You, my friend, CAN DO ANYTHING YOU WANT! However, if college is making you worse, then there is NOTHING wrong with not going. I know it SUCKS. But only you know how you are, truly.

Please don't hate yourself...I wasted all day yesterday hating myself too...trying not to today.

I know I'm not making sense, my eyes are all dilated, and my head is spinning...ugh.

Love you,

Keli

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Registered: 12-20-2004
Tue, 09-19-2006 - 2:31pm

Oh Honey!

Love,

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Registered: 05-02-2006
Tue, 09-19-2006 - 5:49pm

(((((((((Tina)))))))) I wish I had the answer for you. I know what you mean about school stressing you out. When I started this quarter I was already 2 weeks behind and have been playing catch up ever since thanks to the financial aid foul up. As for following your dreams, only you can answer that one I'm afraid. I know for me following this through to the bitter end is the only option for me.


I hope your depression lifts soon. I know I'm fighting low level depression as well as agitation. I'll tell pdoc if it continues to get worse. And it sucks. But PLEASE don't listen to the bp. Don't hate yourself. It's ok to hate the bp, but not yourself. You are a beautiful person. And we all care deeply about you.


Keep us posted.


Hugs,
Traci