Im back...so confused, want advice.
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| Sat, 09-23-2006 - 7:02pm |
hi everyone.
dont know if anyone remembers me. I could flood this page with a book about what has happened in the past one year.
I belonged originally to the Recognizing and Dealing with Domestic Abuse Board 3-4 years ago.....it was that VERY board that gave me strength to leave my ex.
Since then, I have struggled.
I dont want to ramble on and drive you guys crazy. So Im going to summarize really short and little by little, bits and pieces will come out.
Im so overwhelmed and theres so much stress in my life. I went off of bipolar meds last November due to no insurance and not being able to afford them, and blowing up in over 50 pounds in weight. Two months of pure hell with the withdrawal off of Seroquel, lorazepam, Paxil and Trileptal. Did well......thought I AM NOT BIPOLAR. Thought, hey the same three 3 doctors in the same private practice diagnosed me with that because I basically feel I had a nervous breakdown trying to leave my ex who was SO ABUSIVE to me and my children. My kids are now 19 and 21, and the drama continues. My son just came off heroin and is now on methadone. He is sick and seeing a psychiatrist finally, because my EX canceled their health insurance and I took out all of the equity I had in my house to put him in rehab. My daughter had two spine surgeries and got staph infection for 3 months. Ive lost my dad to cancer, my uncle to cancer, my mom has had a heart attack, my brother broke his neck last year in a 4 wheeler accident is now paraplegic, and theres MORe, all within 3 years.
Wondering if i need to go back on medications, but DO NOT WANT TOO. Wondering if its just the UNBELIEVABLE amount of STRESS I have me as a single parent. I am also losing my house right now because I cannot concentrate to work, my mind wanders onto these problems in our lives, and i cant make it financially. Theres more, but this is a start.
thanking you all for listening and reading. I am trying to keep faith in God to get me through this.

Oh Sweetheart,
I hate to say this but, I can't tell you if you're bp or not.
Love,
Sweetie, you've had enough going on to drive a saint to drink, little alone throw you into a tizzy if you are BP!