help me.i'm destroying my family
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help me.i'm destroying my family
| Wed, 09-27-2006 - 8:57am |
i was all prepared to write an essay here on what occured this morning during my 3rd rage of the day.a "was i right??" essay.
last night my oldest said i was acting weird cuz i accepted a social engagement for fri aft & it was so unlike me.
today i took all the shoes my middle dd BEGGED me to buy her & never wore so that she could instead spend her entire existence in a pair of sneakers w/ wheels in the heels(from dad)& just threw them in the garbage.i told her she was wearing the ***%^$( heelies till she could afford to buy her own shoes & if she couldn't keep the &$%#$ laces tied she could go without shoes altogether.
i took all the clothes she begged me to buy & gave em to good will & told her NEVER to ask me for a freaking thing.
needless to say everyone was crying & h was screaming why did i have to start the morning like THIS again?
in the end i confiscated her wheels telling her they were for FUN not daily use & if i was having so much fun in MY shoes i certainly would NEVER want to wear another pair either.
i was sooo out of control.& that was the THIRD rage.
i'm scared to see this dr. today & if you had my history w/ pdocs you would be too.
i'm smoking & i haven't in years.
that's how little i care about myself & i guess my kids too. I HATE MEDS.i hate meds.i think meds screwed up my life way more than the bp
last night my oldest said i was acting weird cuz i accepted a social engagement for fri aft & it was so unlike me.
today i took all the shoes my middle dd BEGGED me to buy her & never wore so that she could instead spend her entire existence in a pair of sneakers w/ wheels in the heels(from dad)& just threw them in the garbage.i told her she was wearing the ***%^$( heelies till she could afford to buy her own shoes & if she couldn't keep the &$%#$ laces tied she could go without shoes altogether.
i took all the clothes she begged me to buy & gave em to good will & told her NEVER to ask me for a freaking thing.
needless to say everyone was crying & h was screaming why did i have to start the morning like THIS again?
in the end i confiscated her wheels telling her they were for FUN not daily use & if i was having so much fun in MY shoes i certainly would NEVER want to wear another pair either.
i was sooo out of control.& that was the THIRD rage.
i'm scared to see this dr. today & if you had my history w/ pdocs you would be too.
i'm smoking & i haven't in years.
that's how little i care about myself & i guess my kids too. I HATE MEDS.i hate meds.i think meds screwed up my life way more than the bp

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it's a total disregard for what she is asked to do.
there is a lot of(untold) narrative behind the story of shoes & clothes but it happens to be about saying you'll do one thing & blatantly doing another.it's really a more complicated tale than you would imagine.
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