I was doing so well...

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Registered: 04-07-2002
I was doing so well...
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Wed, 09-27-2006 - 4:20pm

Folks, for the last month, I have been attending graduate classes in education at U Buffalo. It is a very demanding program, more demanding I think than the last master's I got. Then, I was a little late doing a paper (there are more papers than I've ever seen), and that through me into a tizzy. I became too manic to drive to class today. I couldn't take a bus or cab, because campus is 80 miles away.

I think my profs understand pretty well and are willing to work with me. Still, I can't shake the feeling that I am bad because I missed graduate classes. I know, I not only missed classes with my first MM but was hospitalized one semester, and still I finished. I feel like so much more is riding on this program, though. It may make or break me as a teacher. I am so afraid of failing- I feel like if I fail this time, there goes my last chance.

I was really proud of myself, holding it together after losing my mother and then taking these classes. Do I still have anything to be proud of?

Express.
Beth "Petrouchka"

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Registered: 05-22-2006
Wed, 09-27-2006 - 4:30pm

Yes, Beth, you do - it's YOURSELF. Everything that you've accomplished and are still accomplishing just amazes me!! Hang in there, babe, you can do this.

Many hugs, Kelli





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Registered: 05-02-2006
Wed, 09-27-2006 - 8:41pm

(((((((((((((((Beth))))))))))))) YES!!!!!!!! Yes, you have tons to be proud of! Don't sell yourself short right now. You're in an episode right now and it's best not to make any rash decisions about school. I think you've got it in you to get through this program. You just might need to get your meds adjusted. Girl, if I can do this, anyone can do it! Hang in there and continue to be proud of yourself. You've accomplished a lot!


Hugs,
Traci