the upside of mania..
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the upside of mania..
| Mon, 10-02-2006 - 7:52am |
...is this my house?
i've made almost every single repair/improvement i physically can.
i've cleaned out every drawre & cabinet.
i see in my minds eye every rediculous rationalization i have ever had...i've gotten rid of every single thing i've held onto for years "just in case i need it"
there are several huge bags outside waiting for goodwill & more bags out side overflowing the garbage.
i haven't even hit the attic yet.
my kids told me last night..mom!youre getting to be a good cook!
i described yom kippur to them(the clean slate part..b/c as for atoning for sins i personally think sin is too strong a word for most of our mistakes aside from killing or maiming or cruelty..so i make it about starting from scratch) & told them my promise to improve as a person & a mother & to check my anger at the door.
i hope i don't level out untill im finished w/ self improvment binge.
i've made almost every single repair/improvement i physically can.
i've cleaned out every drawre & cabinet.
i see in my minds eye every rediculous rationalization i have ever had...i've gotten rid of every single thing i've held onto for years "just in case i need it"
there are several huge bags outside waiting for goodwill & more bags out side overflowing the garbage.
i haven't even hit the attic yet.
my kids told me last night..mom!youre getting to be a good cook!
i described yom kippur to them(the clean slate part..b/c as for atoning for sins i personally think sin is too strong a word for most of our mistakes aside from killing or maiming or cruelty..so i make it about starting from scratch) & told them my promise to improve as a person & a mother & to check my anger at the door.
i hope i don't level out untill im finished w/ self improvment binge.

sometimes its hard to tell!