Not good...triggs
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Not good...triggs
| Tue, 10-03-2006 - 4:20pm |
I am so miserable. Physically and emotionally. My head is pounding. My heart rate is out of this world. I feel like I have been running. I guess it could be panic attacks, but it keeps going on and on. I have been taking my xanax.

Tina,
I'm so sorry you are feeling so horribly. When you're sick physically, it makes the emotional and mental worse too. I am glad you see pdoc tomorrow, and tdoc, and i'm hoping it helps.
You struggle so hard...I wish I could help. You know, I didn't stop getting that depressed all the time, until I came off some of the high dosages of mood stabs. You're on both Lithium and Lamictal, right? I can't do that...more than one mood stab will put me into deep depression.
I doubt its the Adderall still making you feel so bad physically. Its probably just your being sick. We are ALL sick here.
As for school, I will be the first to admit I can't do it. Don't feel bad if you can't either. Your life, and your QUALITY of life is more important than feeling you failed at school...maybe you should talk to tdoc at length about it.
Love you,
Keli
Keli, I am so sick of the ups and downs. I have them no matter what but school is just making it harder. I was up about it and trying to feel positive and then today I am down in the gutter. I didn't even listen much at class today. All I could do is write on paper how much I hated being there and I depressed I was and me feeling bad physically.
I don't want to be so medicated all the time. I know I NEED meds and i will not stop them because that would not be fair to myself or my family. I will not put them through more then I need to. It is MY responsibility to take the best care of my mental health as I can, But Dam*. How much can I take with the cycling? I know you know all too well about this. It is torture.
Maybe tomorrow I will get some new ideas of what is wrong with me or what to do to treat me from pdoc and tdoc.
~ Tina ~
I'm so sorry you are still feeling bad....
Like Keli said, I don't think its the adderall.
God could not be everywhere, so