keli...

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Registered: 03-25-2003
keli...
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Fri, 10-06-2006 - 6:55pm
i'm telling you b/c you know most of my sordid past.
oh...and as an aside...the happily married jerk who i told never to call me?
well,yeah..he did.& i told him every dispicable intent behind what he was asking me..& not to mention his FAMILY he was treating me with no respect at all.
anyway he kept calling saying it was just to say hi..he had his "orders & respected them"
everytime he would say that on the message.finally i answered the phone to stop it from ringing all day.i explained to him(he has known me for years & knows it ALL)how overthetop manic i am & let him just talk bout himself yada yada.
& THEN HE ASKED AGAIN!pleaded..even when i told him the subject was closed.
finally i asked him how he could possibly possibly be pushing me like this when i just explained how gripped i was in this mania.i told him...he had seen what i was capable of doing to people & families when in this condition,why would he risk it?????????
he kept begging.asking didn't i think about it.i hung up.
what's up?do you suppose this idiot is sick of his second marraige already & fancies he's in love w/ me?????
oh anyhow.i had a please don't let me throw up here moment today.i have my kids in the car & i drive this 4th girl to an afterschool place.i get stuck behind a fire truck & it's the house that mr. we ruined eachother's life who i haven't seen in 3 years.i'm ok,b/c i'm behind them.i turn onto the street that the afterschool is on & it's backed up by firetrucks.his truck is blocking the street & to get her into the place i have to leave my kids in the car & walk w/ her past the truck & turn right in front of it.
& then i have to do the same to get back to my car.i didn't turn to complete jelly till i got back in my car & told my kids it was cause i was afraid for a moment that the fire was in the afterschool place.
i don't know why i told you...i guess i wanted to get it out & i don't see my shrink till tomorrow.
but i love you & i hope youre feeling better.
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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: suziq_3
Mon, 10-09-2006 - 10:27am

oh hon...i love you too. as for mr. married loser, DO NOT WORRY ABOUT WHETHER OR NOT HE IS HAPPY with his marriage...he is sick and YOU STAND YOUR GROUND. I'm proud of you.

I've had those "throw up" moments too...

We'll do this...I'm here for you. Keep talking and get it all out...it helps.

Love and Hugs,

Keli