PDOCS, UGH!!!
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| Mon, 10-09-2006 - 10:06am |
Okay...so Friday night was bad...my son had a freak out, huge rage thing...then crashed. Finally decided to go to his old pdoc and get on meds. So I call the receptionist this morning, and explained to her wtf was going on and she laughed first off...then she said he wasn't in their system...i told her to FIND HIM and call me back. So, i just had a message saying that she found him, but Dr. Speer only sees them til 15 and she doesn't know WHO can see him at this point. OMG, I am livid.
I'm waiting on the pdoc to call me back now.
And I don't LIKE my "new" pdoc either...I'm going back to the guy that I saw a couple times before.
I'm PMSing really bad and I'm going to lose it on someone.
UGH.
OH! And no more seroquel. I'm sick of it. It doesn't do anything but make me sleep and sleep and sleep. And eat and gain weight.
NO NO NO !
Sorry.

OMG...I am sorry your son is dealing with this right now...and YOU.
WTF is wrong with that stupid a$$ woman at the pdocs? She needs to be on meds. Bi*ch.
I hope the pdoc can advice you on what to do or at least see Mike one time to get him started on meds.
I don't blame you about the Seroquel. It did to me but the Abilify did it to me too and I won't take Abilify for nothing.
I am glad you can switch to the guy you seen before and leave your new pdoc since you don't like her. Sorry that didn't last.
I am ticked about that pdocs office about Mike.
Let me know what is happening please.
I love you
Tina
~ Tina ~
I am SOOOO angry right now. UGH!
I'm going to complain seriously...they say he can't get in there for a MONTH and he CANNOT wait that long and I am NOT going to put him i/p. They can get him in sooner, for gods sake.
What they don't realize is that we are triggering EACH OTHER. I had a major panic attack Friday night and I have been doing well, and I cannot let this happen.
I'm really angry. Need to calm down.
UGH UGH UGH UGH
Is he like this everyday or does he have a time frame in between episodes?
Having 2 BP in one household isn't easy to deal with.
Keep checking with the office to see if they get a cancellation and can squeeze you in. Some times that can be hard too, because it can be a spur of the moment deal.
I know it is hard but you do need to calm down. It isn't helping you and it isn't getting Mike into the pdoc any quicker...I DO, however, understand your anger and fraustration. I would be in the same state right now.
If he isn't a harm to himself or you then I can understand not wanting to put him i/p, but if that should change, you know you need to for his benefit as well as your own.
~ Tina ~
I'm so sorry you are going thru this right now.....
can't you atleast have the ER evaluate him and get him on something for now?
can
God could not be everywhere, so
Donna that a great idea about the ER, because they won't admit him if he isn't at harm to himself or anyone else but they can evaluate him and give him meds.
I hate seeing anyone, but especially kids go through this illness...any mental illness.
Tina
~ Tina ~
He has spells in between where he is really coherent and understands himself and the situation well. He rages about 3-4 times a week though...and they are getting increasingly worse...however, WE DO trigger each other into worsening episodes. Its just a time bomb and now that he knows he needs and will accept help, I'm going to get it for him.
I have calmed down...lol. Still mad at that dumb receptionist though...
Friday night, he tried to break the car windows with his fists, hit the dash board over and over and then completely crashed...crying hysterically...TYPICAL BP. But then in about 15 minutes, it was ALL over and he was himself again.
Neither of us can take much more of this..dh was there with us most of the weekend, and that helps a lot to keep us both in check...however, i don't want us living together again completely, so I have to get control of the situation.
Friday night, after all this, I (stupidly) watched One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest and completely trigged myself...that's when I had the panic attack...I felt sooooo guilty, cuz I gave him BP...but I didn't know...ya know?
Oh well. I'm okay, and back in control right now.
Thanks for your love and support.
Keli
Our ER is CLUELESS and a real joke too...my pdoc (the guy) only sees them over 21.
I have calmed down and I will talk calmly and rationally to the receptionist when she calls me back. Hopefully. Dumb cow.
:)
How are you?
Love you,
k.
The other thing too is he is ADD, and we have anger outburts with having this also...he has a double whammy.
God could not be everywhere, so
I remember when I was so out of control with my BP as a teen and as an adult...that is with the anger part. You feel so overwhelmed with all that emotion. Your angry at yourself and the world, and for me when I would "act out" I would feel so guilty and more angry with myself. I wanted so much to have control over the anger and irritation but it seemed there was no hope and sometimes that harder I tried the worse it all was. I guess because I didn't see any real change. I always felt I had to protect myself from people around me.
~ Tina ~