Struggling w out meds

iVillage Member
Registered: 08-03-2006
Struggling w out meds
5
Tue, 10-10-2006 - 10:32pm

I haven't had my Lexapro since 9/28/06 when I ran out. I've skipped 2 nights of Seroquel. Those nights I had a hard time falling asleep. Anyways, during this time my Stepdaughter, who is a sweet loving child, just has been grating on my nerves. She is very obedient and well behaved. She's loving and kind. It's just her little voice.. that never NEVER SHUTS UP. She YAPS from the time her eyes open until the time she goes to sleep.

I'm really struggling. I just keep telling her Momma's just real tired, but inside my head I just want to yell at her to shut up and go upstairs. I feel so horrible about those thoughts because I love her so much. So far, I've been able to control myself for the most part, except this morning she was just yap yap yap she yaps instead of eating breakfast, yaps instead of putting her shoes on, so this morning I said "E.A.T. EAAAAAT and stop talking!" then she was piddling around YAPYAPYAP and I said "PUT on your Shoes RIGHT NOW and STOP ARGUING or you'll go with NO shoes." -She was arguing that she should brush her teeth first, or should get her lunch out of the fridge first. She questions EVERY thing I do, "reminds me" of stuff "I need to have my teeth brushed and get my lunch, did you make my lunch, did you make my lunch, did you make my lunch, did you put turkey in like you were told to, did you, did you" Finally I said "SD...I am NOT stupid. Thank you." of course I wanted to yell "Shaddap!"

Ugh Thanks for letting me 'type it out'.


iVillage Member
Registered: 05-22-2006
Wed, 10-11-2006 - 8:25am

I understand completely. I have a 7 yo dd and there are times when I think I am going explode with the constant chit chat. I try not to yell but it doesn't always work! I just keep telling myself that the day will come when she won't talk to me at all and how I will miss it.

Hang in there, Kelli





<
iVillage Member
Registered: 01-23-2006
Wed, 10-11-2006 - 8:30am

Hi! I can relate to what you're saying. I'm sure not getting sleep doesn't help any. I have 5 kids...my youngest are 3 and 4. They talk constantly too! Sometimes I just have to say:"Please stop talking for a minute so Mommy can think"!

Renee

iVillage Member
Registered: 04-06-2005
Wed, 10-11-2006 - 9:11am

oh we know what you mean !!!

Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

God could not be everywhere, so

iVillage Member
Registered: 08-03-2006
Wed, 10-11-2006 - 5:14pm

thanks, it's just a struggle going cold turkey. My last pill was 9/28/06. I haven't gotten the refill. Why? Meh. I forget until its too late at night, or I'm already in my P.J.s or I'm just too blasted tired go get it. I know, I sound so lazy, but dragging myself up in the morning, getting to school, and picking up the kid and getting home is just about all I can sap out of my limited energy pool. It's like I'm running with the flashing "out of gas" light on.. like a car.

This kid is so amazingly good that it is sort of wierd. Also, my Stepdaughter looks like me, talks like me, her mannerisms are like me.. it's funny. But, her manners and her behavior are so good its freakish. "Thank you for making dinner, Mommy." every night. She cleans her room and brings down her dirty clothes WITHOUT being told to do it. I feel so bad because what annoys me about her is just that she talks so much. It's constant... in the car on the way home from school, I'm all tired and have listened to the instructor all day..

and dear DSD yaps... "When we get home lets hope Seth (the dog) didn't poop on the floor again...when we get in I need something to drink, I can have milk or juice but no sprite right no sprite till dinner what's for dinner you have to start dinner after we do our homework I have to do homework do you have homework...I hope the dog didn't poop..do you hope the dog didn't poop...you will have to clean it up and don't forget to make dinner and get me a drink, are you going to make dinner, whats for dinner, are you going to make dinner before Daddy gets home, you have to stop and get chicken if we have chicken cause we don't have any chicken in the refridgerator.. I think we're out of coke you didn't go to the store, you were suppose to go to the store, you need to go to the store... "

Then my left eye starts twitching...

I really am grateful that she's such a good kid. But in the mornings she's 'eating' breakfast in little bits between yapping, and it takes her thirty minutes to eat one small cup of pears.. (she loves pears so its not that she doesn't like it), and she goes on and on .. and on...

I say the same thing as a PP mentioned, I repeat it to myself --appreciate it now because she won't want to talk to me at all when she's a teenager--

sorry for rambling on and on... I'm pretty manicy right now. Feel real good, sure of myself with my test tomorrow, want to get alot done, finally happy to feel like I have energy today. Usually I am in the depression part and it sucks.


iVillage Member
Registered: 04-06-2005
Thu, 10-12-2006 - 10:41am

well, here's my experience so far (for what its worth).

Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

God could not be everywhere, so