Depression...trigs

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Depression...trigs
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Mon, 10-16-2006 - 12:34pm

I'm scared. Woke up this morning okay"ish". As the day goes on, i realize I'm depressed and its getting worse...I don't know what to do. Can't take another depression, but yet its here...dammit. I wanna go to bed forever, never get up, never talk to my kid, dh, anyone again...just lay there in my misery till I die.

Why why why why why?????

I know the coping skills. Distraction...(not working). Talking...am trying.

I have a TON of work literally, and I can't do any of it.

I'm a freak. A fat, stupid freak...I hate being BP.

I said JUST this weekend, I was doing well. HAHA freaking ha...shoulda kept my mouth shut.

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Registered: 08-03-2006
Mon, 10-16-2006 - 12:55pm

Aw I'm sorry your experiencing the "down time" as my DH and I call it. It's very hard. Unfortunately, the the depression is the most frequent for me. So, at least I can relate. I try to chant to myself "This too shall pass", the distraction stuff, etc.. but I tend to just want to sleep through it until the Hypomania or the normal comes back.

I hope it passes soon. Try to do some fun stuff, it will pass.


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Registered: 03-25-2003
Mon, 10-16-2006 - 12:59pm

Thanks. It is SO hard. I have been doing this for YEARS and it always hits me hard...and usually out of the blue...

I feel paralyzed. I dont' WANT to do anything fun...I don't WANT to do anything...but I do want to be at home and in my bed.

I know it will pass, it always does, but it feels like it never will.

I know you get that.

Love and Hugs,

Keli

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Registered: 05-02-2006
Mon, 10-16-2006 - 1:02pm

(((((((((((((((Keli))))))))))))))))))) Just keep talking sweetie! We're here for you and will help you in any way we can. I know you don't want another depressive episode, but I also know we don't always have a choice in the matter. Just remember hiding and/or giving up is not allowed! Not on my watch anyway;) So keep talking and keep trying the distraction. It may not be working right now, but maybe it will soon. Keep us posted on how you're doing. You know I worry about you and I care about you.


Love You,
Traci