Me again - TRIGS again

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Me again - TRIGS again
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Mon, 10-16-2006 - 1:04pm

I miss my pdoc. I don't feel safe enough with the new one to call her. I need to. I hit bottom so fast this morning and I'm scared. I wanna go home, but can't. I have to work. BUt can't.

I want to cut...haven't done that in years...want to do something, ANYTHING, to stop this pain.

I'm a freak...nobody in their right mind, hahahahahahaha, would ever think this way.

I have to pretend I'm okay.

I'm not.

I want my pdoc back.

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Mon, 10-16-2006 - 1:08pm

my ds just called (he's home sick today). he wanted me to come home for lunch...i said no, i don't have the car...he hung up on me.

he is always ON ME about something.

he doesn't like my dh staying over (which he is now about 5 times a week). he doesn't like him borrowing my car...but he is so he can work every day...

he says i'm lazy. he says i don't dress well. he wants to be in control of me and everything i do...bottom line is he doesn't want his dad around...but i told him its MY house and MY car...and i will do whatever I choose.

that's all fine and well, but he still fusses at me constantly about it all.

i can't take it.

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Registered: 10-31-2003
Mon, 10-16-2006 - 1:09pm

I'm sorry your feeling this way. But maybe a call to the new doc may be in order. They can't help you if you don't talk to them...just a thought, but do what you need to to stay safe ok.

HUGS!
Lisa

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Mon, 10-16-2006 - 1:33pm

woman...call the new pdoc...its their job and you know it.

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Registered: 04-27-2006
Mon, 10-16-2006 - 2:12pm

call the new pdoc so she can help you. I know you miss your old pdoc. You do what you want with your car and your right it is you house. Some sons are like that with their mother's but keep your ground and let him know who is boss. Hang in there. I am sorry you are going through this low.


I love you




     ~ Tina ~

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Registered: 05-02-2006
Mon, 10-16-2006 - 5:15pm

(((((((Keli)))))) I agree with everyone else. A> it's your house, your car, your choice as to what you do with them. If you and dh are getting along that well then I think it's great! You need someone in your life right now to help you out. DS needs to basically get over it. He cannot control you and you mustn't let him. And B> CALL your pdoc!!! She/he can't help you if they don't know what's going on. You know that. And PLEASE stay safe. I know all about the urges you're having right now but you can't give in to them. I know it hurts, but that's not the answer and I think you know that. Use us here as a sounding board. We're here for you and want you to stay safe. Keep us posted on how you're doing. K?


Love You,
Traci