SuziQ!!!

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SuziQ!!!
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Tue, 10-17-2006 - 8:36am

Please check in with me.

Love and Hugs,

Keli

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In reply to: keli003
Tue, 10-17-2006 - 9:06am

"keli", I'm worried too, but if she did go inpatient she may not have acess to a computer. We can hope that is what happened.

tk

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Tue, 10-17-2006 - 9:13am
Hi tk...how are you doing today?
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Tue, 10-17-2006 - 9:26am

O.K. Trying to find the post I stuck a question in. Sorry to hear about your little incident last night. Hope things are getting/get better for you.

Like I said, worried about "suzi" myself. I remember being in that mental/emotional state and some of the stupid s*** I did. I have found having a wife and kids helped me alot in that situation. For me, just knowing someone is relying on me keeps me from thinking of ending it.

tk

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Tue, 10-17-2006 - 11:24am
no chance of me going inpatient.
remember it was was too inconvenient for everyone else last time.my own mother still thinks i have the flu.
what would they do w/ this hellacious dog that I bought?
probably kennel it.
i thought of you keli,greiving for your old pdoc.that's what it is..greiving.even i wanted to go back to dr.nuts at this point.
the new doc however,rejected the idea of an anti depressant.she seems to feel that it flips me towards manic & that the mania is hidden behind depressive behavior.
so she wants me to use lithium as the drug that will work without clouding it with stuff that will counter it.(& i went home & dumped all that lovely adderoll)
so...she gave me back my seroquel but not in the amount that the old dr did.i can control this dosage from 25 to 100
but then......(da-dum)
she told me i need to relax & prescribed,i think,lorcet....in the klonopin family.after my last i/p stint i was forbidden to ever take this kind of drug again.i was washing mine down w/ bourbon(altho what do you think "thoughtful "dh stocked for me when the insomnia hit?bourbon & vodka galore.
some help.
anyway i got very quiet when she gave me the sedatives.b/c i wanted them.i wanted to sleep.i sort of did...better that usual.
i'm supposed to take one during the day but i won't.night is enough & what it's for.
spent all morn waiting to get my bloods done.lets hope i don't need more lithium.
how have i made it to age 45?i suppose when youre young you can distract yourself in a thousand ways.i wish i could take my whole life back.
thank you for thinking of me.