Just talking

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Just talking
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Wed, 10-18-2006 - 8:24am

I was SOOOOOOOOO manic and flying high last night...Talked to 2 old friends...the first one, Jennifer, knows me well...and she said, ummm, keli, are you manic??? I said, ummmm, yeah I think I am!!! We talked and laughed about the CRAZIEST stuff...but I was getting increasingly agitated, so I took my Ativan and a half of a Seroquel. About an hour later, I was so sleepy...the phone rang, and it was Bonnie. My OLDEST friend in the world. We don't talk often anymore...but she and her H are divorcing. She found out that he has a thing with her best friend...they've been sleeping together for the last few weeks...it was a mess. She seems to be doing okay with it...but we are all going out Saturday night for some drinks...just hang out and have some fun...

Yesterday afternoon, I talked to one of my exes. (God that sounds kinda bad) He is one that I was with a long time, but we didn't exactly see eye to eye on everything. I have also treated him pretty badly in the last couple years. I told him I wanted to apologize, and for him not to be angry at me anymore...he is. Says he isn't. Anyway, to make a long story short, he isn't doing well either...he has depression and anxiety and one of his good friends passed away a few days ago. His wife has cancer and she doesn't feel good most of the time...from chemo/rads.

I almost started crying when I was talking to him because he is right. I have been so mean to him lately and I don't know why. Gotta work on that.

My dh has been WONDERFUL to me lately. He even held hands with me in the car this morning. I love him so much...and I'm so thankful we were able to rebuild our marriage, even if its not really "normal".

Dunno why I cycled so fast the last 2 days...I'm going to watch it, and if need be, I may increase my Li.

Love and Hugs to all,

Keli

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In reply to: keli003
Wed, 10-18-2006 - 9:47am

Morning !

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Registered: 04-27-2006
In reply to: keli003
Wed, 10-18-2006 - 9:57am

It sounds like yo had a pretty good night. I know talking to your friends helped even though they are having issues too. It is great to hear you

     ~ Tina ~