Feeling OK, I think??

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Registered: 07-30-2006
Feeling OK, I think??
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Sun, 10-22-2006 - 6:15pm
I'm not really sure how I'm supposed to feel after my meds start to work. I have increased my Lamictal to 200mg and was also put on Trazodone as a sleep aid PRN. I feel calmer, still myself (very outgoing, bubbly, talkative) but not so angry, irate, and over the edge about things. I'm struggling with arguing with my husband now, because he is used to me blowing up and feeding into him so that he has a reason to blow up as well. Well this morning he blew up. I remained calm and cool, and I think it really just made him even more angry. He wants to yell and scream and I just can't do that. That's part of why I went to tdoc in the first place. I'm afraid that once I get my emotions under control and in check and can start to think clearly, I am going to realize just how toxic my relationship with dh has been for the past 7 years. That terrifies me. I'm also afraid that he is going to continue to blame every decision I make on me being BP. I am very spontanious, and yes part of that does stem from BP but not all of it. So while I think that my meds are starting to work and some of the fog is starting to clear in my head (horray) I am starting to see things about my relationships with people that I was never able to really see before. So I guess the best way to describe it would be bitter-sweet. Reality sucks!!
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Registered: 05-22-2006
Mon, 10-23-2006 - 8:06am

Hi there! I am sorry to hear about you and DH. The Lamictal has helped me too, although I am still really cranky.
Sending you P&PT's....

Pug hugs, Kelli





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Registered: 04-06-2005
Mon, 10-23-2006 - 9:11am

sounds like its working to me !!!


maybe dh just needs some time to adjust to the new you (not blowing up at each other).

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Registered: 08-11-2006
Mon, 10-23-2006 - 1:30pm

I myself didn't/don't notice much difference on Lamictal, but DW says she has noticed anger being WAYY down. I don't get these people that want to put us down and marginalize us for having bp. I'm with the rest here, I have made some decisions in my life I WISH I could blame on the bp, but can't in good concious....I made them and have to accept the consequences. Some people are spontaneous (that are not bp), some people are moody (that are not bp), some people have a quicker temper than others (that are not bp)....just because bp can make all of these more severe does not mean bp is an excuse/reason for everything and I have noticed ALL of us on these boards take responsibility for ourselves. Just wish the rest of the world could see us the same way. JMHO.

I am glad to hear that you are seeing your way to a better place. Just remember THIS is a better place than rocking along thinking everything is just peachy. Good luck and don't get down on yourself. It may turn out that a change in scenery IS what you need. Just make sure you have done everything YOU can, after that, you can't control anyone but yourself.

Again, Good luck,
tk

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