I knew I didn't want to go....

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Registered: 05-02-2006
I knew I didn't want to go....
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Tue, 10-24-2006 - 1:35pm

...to tdoc appointment. First she suggested ECT as a possibility to which I quickly refused. I've heard too many horror stories about that, PLUS it requires i/p. Then she asks me if there were a way to make me feel better that required i/p would I take it. I honestly don't know. It would have to be a guaranteed fix for me to go in I think. Then she suggested I get a second opinion from a pdoc who specializes in bp. So another new pdoc and this one is 45 minutes away. And she wants me to bring in my knives and blades. She said it's up to me, but I got the feeling she wants me to bring them in.


I know she's trying to help, I do, but I'm just tired of fighting. Words she doesn't like to hear, but words I said anyway. I'm supposed to be honest right? She says she understands where I'm coming from because I've been up and down so much in the past couple of years it would make anyone ready to throw in the towel. But she wants me to call this other pdoc and see what he has to say. She is hoping that he is in possession of new information on meds or something that will work for someone who is med resistant.


I don't know if I should wait until we see if the seroquel works or if I should call him now. She seems to think I should at least call and get some information now and if the seroquel works great, but if not then I'll have fall back. I'm just lost as to what to do. I know what I want to do, which is why she wants me to bring her my knives and blades, but I'm just lost.


Well that's about it for now. Sorry to be so down ladies. That's just where I'm at...again:(


Traci

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Registered: 04-06-2005
Tue, 10-24-2006 - 1:47pm

at this point.....what do you have to lose?

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Registered: 04-27-2006
Tue, 10-24-2006 - 1:50pm

Traci,


Call the new pdoc. He may have a way to help you. It wouldn't hurt and it may just help.


I am sorry you are feeling like this. I too, am feeling down...real down. School is a lot of pressure for us and that doesn't help. Hang in there and please don't hurt yourself.


Love you


Tina




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Registered: 09-01-2004
Tue, 10-24-2006 - 3:13pm

Traci,


Just the thought of another pdoc makes me sick, but the current one doesn't seem to be helping and this one is coming recommended by your tdoc as a specialist in BP.

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Registered: 05-22-2006
Tue, 10-24-2006 - 3:59pm

Might be a good idea to call new pdoc and get an appt just in case his appts are months out and that way you can have back-up in case Seroquel (sp?) doesn't work?

Many hugs Traci, Kelli





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