Past & Present differences
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| Thu, 10-26-2006 - 1:51pm |
Do you know of differences that you have made from before being treated for bipolar to now?
My dd and I were talking about her growing up with a bipolar single mom. She said there is such a big change in what I used to be to what I am now.
She said, I am A LOT less angry and irritable. I suffer from depression less as far as the duration it lasts and am less suicidal. I haven't been i/p for about 3 yrs or so.
She remembers me staying in my room for days and days. She said, almost anything would set me off. She hated not knowing what to expect from me. She hated seeing me so sad all the time.
She told me we had good times when she was younger, a lot of good times, but now that she is older she can see how it all was such a hard struggle for me. She knows it still is but she sees I am improving in so many ways and have been for a few years.
She told me about the time she was 7 and she kept

Yes, yes, and yes. I too have made many changes. I went from a manic, drug addicted, crazy person to the crazy person I am now...not manic all the time, and not on drugs anymore.
Its not easy. Being BP is not easy. Period. But, we've come a long way, haven't we???
My goal is to go one year without i/p. Its coming up in February. I am soooo far from where I was then, that it amazes me. The power of positivity amazes me.
I still struggle. I KNOW that I will continue to struggle. But I've also btdt, ya know??? I know more how to cope with it. I guess. LOL.
I'm proud of you. You are back in school, and while its been tough, YOU ARE DOING IT.
Love you,
Keli
Hey Tina! I will swear to this day that the only reason my 19 yo dd is even remotely normal is because I lived next door to my parents (after leaving xh when dd was 2 yo) and they really took care of her until she was 9 yo then married now dh who has always loved her and treated her well.
Thank goodness because I know it wasn't my lousy parenting skills! I've been able to redeem myself with 7 yo dd - much more stable now.
Pug hugs, Kelli